today i spent loadsa time with my clay work! :) kinda proud :) haha.but shucks.no art period tmr for me...haha.and i went for my FIRST maths period this week! haha.
sorry qy for not going to hv with you todayyy :( was already reaching HOME!!! ahhh!!!

watched the beginning part of cinderella man... pretty nice :)then watched hv on TV. then ate dinner.and mummy offered to bring us to haagen dazs(!!!) and we did...with me wearing my NEW YELLOW flats.. :) haha.kinda painful...haha.but... XD had my icecream!!! :) and we bought two tubs back haha. shit.and i just ate a chicken chop papa brought back !!! i am eating too much!!! haha.nvm.shant sleep so early tonight..even though ian hwee just warned me about PERMENANT eyebags. where the skin will start BULGING, PUFFY and SAGGING!!!

thanks ian for taking all my crap:) and your countless attempts to cheer me up. LOL.even though your methods are like...WEIRD. haha.thanks anyway..for offering to get me a whole EXTRA cheesecake. or a bear for me to punch. and for allowing me to PUNCH you. :) hahaha.thanks! -- everything will be fine! hopefully.

and to ian hwee.thanks for hearing my crap. HAHA.you are SOOOO not a guy.and you are my GF ;)
haha and i shall get you a barbie house for your next bday! haha. ;)

esther dearrriieee!!! OH NO!!!! hope everything is ALRIGHT!!! tell me the FULLL story ASAP!
love ya!<333

and at this rate.it is REALLY over.

just thinking about it makes me feel colder, as if the air around me freezes, as if i can never feel warm again. is this really what it should be?

ok.no more being emo.
lol. today i was quite pissed off. haha.stupid thing.didnt buy anything in the end at the so called sale cause the stocks just ran out.they just keep running out of nice sizes. :(
pretty sad that i could not get my polo t and the red collage shirt. :( somemore stupid bang just had to rub it in my face :( haha. nvm. peace. walked to the mrt with qy and went home with jay :)
reached home..and i STUDIED! :) haha.just chucked my phone under my blanket.. haha. sooo.no distraction. haha.man..i should most probably speed up!

haha.QY.glad that you ad GREAT fun today with your cousin! haha.YOU PIG! hahaha.ate SOOO much!

nice talking to you nick! :) cheered me up loads!
haha.i am your stalker ;)
and you are pretty cute when you were five years old. haha. :)

esther esther esther...went back to MG to eat nice nice nasi lemak...never calllll me....!!!
haha.i know.i have school.haha.but nvm next time just call me.and i see if i can PON. :D
missing ya loads dearie! btw, you and darren look SOOO cute together! :)

haha.happy that you are happy!

stupid ROY.haha.abuse me.physically and mentally. exploit me as if it is FREE. haha.tsk tsk.and THREATEN MEEEE :( boo.haha. nvm. haha.we shall ACE our ART. :) dont worry too much about your clay work. i have faith in you ! i am SURE you CAN do it! so dont be discouraged if it doesnt go your way k? :D

missing you loads piggy! <333 haha.

i love this painting :)
<333
haha.warhol.
yes.

and i am missing esther!!! <333

haha.miss tong wei!!! :) hehehe.she tried giving me her name card...which btw it TOTALLY lame..haha.but papa asked me if i wanted a set too...lol..and i was like...YEAHHH...cause i wanna print

Ooi Tong Si
Princess Co.
Queen of the Princess Empire
Royal Pte Ltd

Tel: 9XXX XXXX

LOL. and it shall be in black and red with gold linings. HAHA.

well...today was kinda TIRING and ITCHY!!! AHHHH!!!
scratch scratch...nvm.use the trusty ole aloe vera gel! :)
haha.

still itchy..but not as bad as in the afternoon. :D haha.ooo.had the arts council interview today.pretty scary.and i think i kinda screwed it up with my incoherent rambling.i was rambling on about attitude.and crap...AHHH.HELP ME.

haha.am like..SUPER happy now!!! cause...i got an email from SARA!!! :)

THE MARTINI GIRL.
haha. <333

missing her loads!!! it will NEVER be the same w/o her and her PINK bree bag or her prada bag...siiiggh..and her FUNKY PINK furry shoes..haha.
yes. haha.

nice talking to elise the other day! :)

missing you loads!!! haha.
shucks. it is like everyone is overseas... :(
nvm.elise...all the best with AAAA.
haha. :) <333

hmm. oh shit. promos are coooooommmingggg!!!

hehe.but instead of studying for the promos...i am like...SHOPPING .planning for things to do AFTER promos.watching movies.eating.daydreaming.reading mags...
shit.
i should move my ass.

btw..i bought my lovely rounded flats today!!! :) haha.
went shopping with mummy and TW after that BIG dinner...had many different types of curry.plus satay..haha.but didnt really eat much due to my horrid ulcer. :( have a NEW one... :(
boooo :(

had jap food for lunch..well..salmon with wasabi... :) :) :) haha. i lovvve raw salmon! :) ehehe.with wasabi!!! :) yesss. :)

to piggy: cheer up ok? just ignore that guy!!! :) not worth it!!! :) haha.call me anytime!!! :) missing you loads dearie!!! <3

to esther: get WELL SOON! and have FUN FUN FUN!!! :) haha. <3>

to roy: haha.dont be so pissed off ok??? :) things WILL start being better!!! :) take ART for example...you will ROCK it! :) haha.

to sharmeen: SMILE MORE!!! things WILLLLL GET BEETTTEEERRR!!! :)

thanks yinling for that GREAT email! made my DAY!!! :) haha. <3

WAHAHAHAHAHA...got this from eleen..super CUTEEEE!!! hahaha.you MUST MUST MUST do this esther!!! hehe.sorry for adele..because of dear lil me...she called you...sooo EARLY(for you) in the morning. haha. :)

O- You are one of the best in bed.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
I- You have a fine ass

T- You're loyal to those you love.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
N- You are dead sexy.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.

S- Easy to fall in love with.
I- You have a fine ass

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. as if man... -.-"

little footnote:
A- You like to curse alot
B- You like people.
C- You're wild and crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E- Damn good kisser.
F- People adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You have a fine ass
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You are really silly.
L- you live to have fun.
M-one to have fun
N- You are dead sexy.
O- You are one of the best in bed.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Fcukin Crazy
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best damn bf/gf anyone one could ask for.
Z- Always ready.

hahaha.missing YOU LOADS!!! baaaaaa. esther esther esther!!! ahhh.missing your CRAZY lil self loads!!! booooo. i feel like just lazing at the beach...just tanning.and soaking in the sun...looking at the blue blue cloudless sky.looking past the horizon...boooo.and just SLACKING!!! AHHHH!!! shucks.nvm.at least...i got to eat my mango strudel...haha.bought it yesterday from ritz strudel house. hehe :D

ok.PROMOS are HERE.and i shall go get the ogl form tmr :) hehe.plus complete the map form.and get my passport size photo taken.yes.and STUDY!!! yes.i should just go study.i shall go study NOW.NOW NOW NOW.ok.
bye...

oh yeah. YOU, yes YOU.sucks.bugger.and what a STALKER.you know who you are.

S T A L K E R.

confuse me.then smash it into my face.and then make peace.then confuse me again.and then smash it into my face, yet again. -.-

YEA!!! MY CRAVING FOR SALMON IS STATISFIED!!! :)
hehe.we had jap food for dinner.and i ate and ate my dear dear dear SALMON!!! hehehe.
didnt really eat anything else..haha.other than my steamed egg.hehe.and my green tea soba. :):):)
hahahaha.salmon is GOOOOD :)

awww shucks.school starts tmr.and i obviously dont feel like going to school... boo.
and i should most prob start studying for my promos. hahaha.but the problem is...i dunno how!
boo.
oooo..all the best to noah and marcus for their upcoming promos...which is like in ONE week's time!!! :D do your best you guys!!!

stupid booboo gave the brush off today. hurmph.even though you give me money, i WONT TOLERATE BRUSH OFFs!!! hahaha.just joking... ;) (oh yeah. pls note that i DONT use the money.)

even though all the stuff you know shows how much you care...sometimes...it just isnt enough.we have to ALWAYS consider the other factors..you know...it is impossible to have live in a world comprising of only two people...
sooo...i am sorry i cant tell you the answer now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIUYAN!!! :)

ahhhhhhhhhh!!! shit. okkk.no more emo shit.hahaha.

yes...school is going to start!!! AHHHHHH!!! SHIT. i dont want to go back!!!
oooo.finally.watched the devil wears prada. omg. love the shoes.and the clothes!!! i actually can remember some of the designs..hahaha.like the ralph lauren coat!!! haha. :) hahaha.
baaahhhhh...miss wang loads!!! hahaha.even though i kinda know she is busy dating ...rather than to meet poor ole moi... *pout*

boo.am doing my pop art notes now...hahaha.dont really like the term three syllabus..all about pop art..photo realism..blah blah blah...rather the impressionism expressionism etc...sighhhh...oh yeAh..NO MORE EMO.hahah

:)

DONT CALL ME BABY

You and me, we have an opportunity
And we could make it something really cool
But you, you think I'm not that kind of girl
I'm here to tell you baby, I know how to rock your world

Don't think that I'm not strong
I'm the one to take you on
Don't underestimate me boy
I'll make you sorry you were born
You don't know me
The way you really should
You sure misunderstood

Dont' call me baby
You got some nerve, and baby that'll never do
You know I don't belong t o you
It's time you knew I'm not your baby
I belong to me, so
Don't call me baby

Behind my smile is my IQ
I must admit, this does not sit, with the likes of you
You're really sweet
Mmm, you're really nice
But didn't mama ever tell you not to play with fire?

hahahahahahahhahaha.this is for you.

oooo.
i heart jay! :)

hmmm.thanks for the past few days...it was like...i dunno...
but these past few days just made me even MORE confused. sigh...

i am sorry.

i am sorry i cant tell you my decision.
but i just want to tell you that all your actions are appreciated. like you buying the peppermint tea when i was coughing and having my flu...even though it was "fucking expensive"...and even though in the end i didnt drink it at all.and passed it to you.forcing YOU to drink it instead..cause i know it sucked. haha.and thanks for giving me your money.even though i refuse to use it.
thanks for your patience even with me hitting you and pinching you. i have no idea why i do that...haha.no.actually i do.cause it is fun... ;)
errr..even though there are loadsa things that point towards the direction of YES...i dont know.and i am sorry for putting you through all this.
if you want...i can end it now. ;)
haha.
i am sorry.

omg. ESTHER !!! I AM SOOOOO JEALOUS OF YOU!!! hurmph. went off to watch the devil wears prada WITHOUT MEEEEEEEE!!!!!! hurmph.
hehe.but hope your date went well.which i think did. LOL <3

had a greeeaaattt time with you yesterday ...taking v v v weird neoprints.and blowing all our money on them...haha.ooooo.and i thought the punk shirts are soooo rad...but..the sizes are soo big! boo. :( went to the dkny sale.man..the clothes are like kinda weird...a little too granny-ish...lol..even esther thought so. *drip drip*ooooo.it was quite a fun day despite my nose cum cough situation... :) esther can ALWAYSSSS make me feeeeellll better!!!:) hahahaha.v v v v v funny.hahaha. loads of people STARED at esther...hahahah.i think it was because..she is chio. :) :) :) but...she insisted that it was because she looked weird...which is SOOO not true! hahaha.oooo.then this lady approached us asking us if we are interested in modeling...err...nooo.later..this guy...SUPER WEIRD.approached us to do a survey.and esther kept LAUGHING and LAUGHING...lol...i was like..errr..that is her normal self.HAHAHAHA.she was like...HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.then turned away from the guy and HAHAHAHAHAH. LOL!!!
love ya!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3
i am here for you whenever you neeeeed ME!!! :)

went to the library to study after art...boo. YOU HUNG UP ON ME. you slut. tsk tsk.
i love you smiley face!!! i shall load a pic of you when i remember. :)

sigh.and i still dont know ...

I… can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean

You’ve kept me hanging from a string
While you make me cry
I’ve tried to give you everything
But you just give me lies

I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you

Now loves a broken record that’s been
Skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we have to play these games we play

I ain’t tripping
I’m just missing you
You know what I’m saying
You know what I mean
Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool

I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true, I’m stuck on you

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’d be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
I’m still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
Don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you

PS. LOH ZHUQING. I AM SOOOO gonna KILLLL you.
PSS. HAD FUN WITH YOU TODAY ESTHER!!! :) <3<3<3

thanks everyone for your endless support and encouragements!!! :)

had a great talk with flea today :) even though i dont agree with some things you said...*wink* :) love ya! <3>
hehe.

talked to marcus todayy... :) CUS CUS! haha.nice talking to you. and thanks for the advice. lol. i think i shall just delete EVERYTHING away. i hope i can do that. :) know that you are missing her a lot.call her!!! :) even though it is going to be like..super EX. :) :) :) study hard!!! :):):) and missing ya loads.and sorry man.i didnt mean to give you the "whatever man" look.haha. know that you are missing ac loads...but it is ok!!! :) one year left!!! hahahah.how comforting.lol.

today is still shit.but i was still able to forget about things.went to orchard in the morning.tried to find for paper napkins at isetan supermarket...but wth.the supermarket doesnt have napkins!!! so went to zara for the MUCH needed retail therapy. bought two tops.which i love. :) wanted to buy more..but..stupid me.dont have enough money.so could only buy two...booo.
then rushed to school.was late..but..nvm.others were later.muuhahaha.

Oooo.we got LILY a CAKE for her BDAY!!! :) her birthday was yesterday. :) hehehehe. my girlfriend! :) <3<3<3>

but coming home is like... :( sighh.there is like this glooooommy cloud hanging over alll our heads. :'(

siggghh...
sucks man. :( boo...accidentally hackled blood out. EWWW.vvvvvvvv ewww.oei esther.dont ask me to go see a doc when YOU dont do it. LOL :) but i feel your love <3>

hmm...well.at least..todayy...i have upped my food intake :) lol.from yesterday's near- to- nothing to today's near- to- something. ah well.didnt really eat breakfast and lunch...unless you count a hakao. no appetite after knowing about beebs. :( no lunch either.and ate a little for dinner. that is good.better than yesterday's!!! :)

and to ian hwee, thanks for taking my crappy mood. i know i was being kinda EMO EMO EMO... lol.

COOKIES!!! STOP SAYING SORRY TO ME!!! THERE IS NOTHING TO BE SORRYYYY ABOUT!!! -.-"

boo.still sniffling and hackling away.well.at least i dont have a fever now.
sigh.v v v v tired. kept waking up last night. even papa woke up and gave me panadol cause my lights were on in the middle of the night...lol.three am.and i was actually thinking of studying. lol. but to pacify papa...i tucked myself in bed.

thanks again to people who are like...sooo wonderful! :)
thanks esther, piggy, sharmeen, felicia, lily (for just being my GF ;) ), juliaannee(thanks for your hug! ), cus cus, samme :) , cookies, ian hwee, jas ong (YOU SEXXXYYYY babe!) , dawwnieee. etc etc etc.this list just goes on man.sorry if i left anyone out. :) love you all the same! :)
with hugs and kisses, toodles. ;)

<3

Bambi passed away this morning. papa said not to inform tong wei. :( for the past nine years he was with us, he was a rawkin' dog, one who loves to run around the garden, chasing butterflies, bugging Deedee.being such an active dog. :) i remember the first time i saw him. it was in the morning when i was going into the school bus and i had no idea we were going to have a new dog.so when i had a glimpse of a pig nose i thought i saw a monster. :) thanks for the wonderful memories and of being so ever loyal and steadfast in trying to protect us from things. like the cockroaches. :) i will always remember your puppy dog eyes, always peering at us pleading for food from the table during dinner time. i know the last few months was painful for you.to hear you whine and to see you lose so much weight. i am sorry for thinking that you are a stinky dog.i love you, and i will learn to cherish tyson more. :) it is unnaturally quiet in the house now. i half expect to hear the jingle of the bell and the sound of your nails clicking on the floor. even tyson knows something is wrong.
i will not forget you. <3<3<3

when it rains, it pours.

sigh.what is my f-ing problem? sheesh. cant sleep at all.even after eating two panadols. :( boo. i dont want last night, or rather this morning to repeat itself man...slept at like four and woke up at like seven thirty. slept at four after eating panadol.but had an allergic reaction to the panadol intake in the morning :( boo.shucks.stupid gastric. :( and cough.plus flu.and the f-ing ulcer.and fever.plus headache.and shivers. :(:(:( URGH!!!
sigh.why why why why why must i always fall ill during the HOLIDAYS!?!?!? FUCK.
had like no appetite today.so today i only ate like a piece of sushi and like five spoonful of porridge.this sucks :( and i was supposed to be shopping today.which i sorta did.if you count standing around at tangs by the railings.well.at least i got a new ring.lol.shoots.i have nooo idea why i can go to sleep!!! URGH! like..i am very very very tired.and my eyes are like puffy and painful.but i just cant sleep! sheesh man.boo.life is a whore.
have to go to school tmr.well.at least it is not in the morning. hope i wont faint or something.ha.urgh.
get out of my head!!!

it's over.

omg.we slept at like FIVE am in the morning today...hahah.esther and i woke up at about 930. then esther went back to sleep.while i did my work...haha.i did lit notes.chinese worksheet.and my art :) yea!!! finally the drawing of the cub is DONE!!! :) awww.and i woke up with a FREAKING SORETHROAT!!! :( boo.

had breakfast when esther woke up.and slacked in my room for a while.then headed to marina sq :) tsk tsk.esther...we are CABBING TOO MUCH!!! went bowling..and I WAS TRASHING ESTHER's BUTT!!! :D :D :D hehe.but i know the real reason why i am actually trashing her ass in bowling for once... boo. sorry esther!!! i just didnt feel like pooling today.

then played daytona. score is one all. haha.went shopping after that.walking around like zombies man...lol.her listening to her lurrrve songs.and my mind wondering off. -.-" bought the much needed box to put ****'s presents in.cute hot pink citrus mints. :) hehe.da baoed kenny rogers muffins for TL and TA(not that they really appreciated it). headed to hmv.got esther's cd.and headed homeeee :) took a nap.then headed for dinner.after which i went to orchard with mummy. went to hmv again.got the new christina aguilera cd.bought a silk kimono thingy.super chio... :) being black and all :) yea! new accessory for my room!!! :)

came home.took a bath.took some cough syrup. and thanks conray for your erm..lame- but- sounds- encouraging- yet- actually- insulting sms. :) but it cheered me up! :) haha.hope you have FUN FUN FUN tmr!!! :)

missing ya dearrieee poooiee-s! :)
piggy dont worry about things like that! :)
and esther. you promise josh that you WILL go see the docs if you cant take it anymore.
haha.sorry.i have to document it down.just in case.haha. :) <3<3<3

just came back from krunk.it sucked cause of two guys.disgusting.sheesh... shall elaborate when i am in the mood to blog.or you can just crossref to esther's blog.ha.and esther is sleeping over tonight!!! tht is like..the only good thing to the night. thanks esther!!! <3<3<3

you know what.i feel like it is over.
it most probably is long overdued.

"just treasure wad u have
b4 everyhing disappears"
i rather not experience it.than to experience it then lose it.

"then if i tell u i bullshitted the testimonial"
and you cant keep confusing me all the time.cause this is bullshit.and you know it.

"just take it as i nv had her as my gf"
this is bullshit too.and you know it. how can this be possible? is it fair to you? is it fair to her? is it fair to me?

"i told u u dun understand mi"
yes.i admit that i dont understand you. and i dont know how to understand you. cause you just contradict every single thing you freaking say. first you say that you never did love her.then you say you loved her only at one point.then you say that it was crap. let me tell you, what you are saying is crap. and i just dont have the strength to listen to anymore of your shit.it is just plain tiring.

saying that it is all in vain does not exactly make me feel good.let it be in vain then. if that is what you think.