It has been ages since i posted anything here.
but weirdly, perhaps this is the place for me to
consolidate all my thoughts and ideas.

things have been horrible lately.
- the pillar has crumbled.
the ceiling fell.
dust collecting.
and i am in an utter state of despair.
i feel have been feeling a sense of helplessness.
as if i am utterly useless
and nothing i do can improve things.

perhaps,
i think to myself, going to a local uni was not a right choice from the beginning.
i should have gone overseas - UK, Aussie, whatever.
now, i am going to graduate soon,
AND still going to do another degree
- does anything make sense anymore?

Perhaps i need a short get-away.
but would it even help my troubled heart and mind?


source: amanresort website