haha..am super happy.cause i just bought my GLAM top from forever21 for $48..:)lalalalala..went shopping today.and hung out with puffy and wang..:) super fun being the SHINING lamp post..no la.actually kinda awkward..lol...

lalala..am doing my art critical essay..have to write about Edouard Manet's Luncheon on the Grass.quite tough.since i don't really know how to do it.sigh.will miss elise when she heads back to australia..MISS YOU ELISE!!after the cny celebrations. i went to meet my dearly missed friend at the concourse since we have not met since tht morning..and then we head to the gate to meet a EVEN longer lost friend..my dear piggy!!<3<3then>

sigh.super depressed.mood swings.met up with charis,jas,pig.sat at holland starbucks.and i REALLY miss them.which sucks.and i miss talking to pig and charis and jas as a group.feelings of nostalgia. and the new toy i bought for tyson from the pet shop BROKE after five minutes of him playing it.:(this is getting sadder...adding on, i just found out tht yan cant make it tmr.sigh.and now i am feeling absolutely down.and super sad.and she is haunting me to the end.she is affecting my life in ac already.which really sucks big time.and i really love ac.but i cant seem to muster that strength to face another day in school tmr.i just cant.i just feel so down.and i think about all the times we did spend together. and how i cant really know what she wants and thinks about.i feel so sad just thinking about it.but i really wanna resolve this.and i dunno how.and i really miss wang, dele, xwx loads.and ria too.i know i will be meeting wang, xwx, and dele on sat.but i really cant stand it.i mean.i love my og and all.but i have only met them at the beginning of jan.so tht is abt two weeks.and i dunno how to stop myself from feeling like this.and tyson is really naughty.and i snapped at my brother today.:(and i totally biatched at my older sis for taking my clothes.everyday.sigh.am rambling.:(and i have to think about studies.and i am fearful of whether i can cope well.and catch up.blah blah blah.i am open to change.but i think i am kinda trying to adapt to change number 2.new class.sigh.but just wanna say thanks to wendy for the comfort.and am listening to this hilary duff song.it seems kinda true.that something will be going on everywhere.anywhere.but i gotta keep going.at least try.no matter what i do.someone will be there to bring me down.but i just gotta keep going.it is all around me.but i have the choice whether i wanna let it make an impact on me.
There's people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don't know anything
About me
Give me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
I need to getaway tonight
I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try and make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok
The cities restless
It's all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight

orientation week has flown by...and i have made loadsa new friends..but i am NOT forgetting the old oness..(are u reading this, esther???)and i LOVE my og!!! kisses to Baudelaire!!lalalala..i just met my class today.and i am pretty afraid of them..sigh.and SHE is in my class.and Deb said tht if SHE was in HER class, she would transfer out.OMG!die die die.everyone is like patting on my back.telling me it is ok.sigh.the first look on their faces when i told them who was in my class is like.DOT DOT DOT.sigh.so sad.:(well.nvm.MUST THINK POSITIVE!ok.good thing coming up.going out with piggy, jas, charis tmr to holland.shall sit at starbucks and talk.for a very long time.since the stupid place practically threw van, esther and me OUT when we wanted to study on a sat after a sleepover at my house.to study for the olevels.so evil.right.:Pcant wait for og outing!!!lalalalala.