i could be that girl

i'm the girl who will put her head on your
shoulder, not because i'm sleepy, but because i
want to be closer to you...

i'm the girl who likes to be kissed in the rain,
more than inside your bedroom or in an expensive
resturant...

i'm the girl who says, "ok, but you owe me..."
jokingly not because i actually want something,
but because it means i get to spend more time with
you...

i'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and
i will have fun because it means i am spending
time with you...

i'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when i
find someone i like i want to spend the whole
night curled up in their arms...

i'm the girl who never forgets all the sweet
little things you do for me...

i'm the girl who once i let you into my heart,
there's always a place there with your name on it.
& even if we spend time apart, i'm the girl who
never forgets you..

i'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss..

i'm the girl who you can talk to about anything..

i'm the girl who laughs at your jokes...

i'm the girl who will brag about you to all of my
friends...

i'm the girl who will listen to you when you talk...

i'm the girl who loves it when you hug me for no
apparent reason...

i'm the girl who loves it when you hug me from
behind or kiss me on the cheek...

i'm the girl who loves it when you introduce me to
your friends as your GIRLFRIEND...

i'm the girl who loves the feeling when you take
me by the hand without saying a word...

i'm the girl who loves you for you, and doesn't
care what other people say about us...

but i am not.am i?

well.today was kinda a hectic day...suddenly got a pink slip with adele after maths tutorial.met esther and van at dover and headed for bugis to attend ms goh's service and cremation. :(
met shiping and shiling and some other familiar faces :) after that esther came over to my house...talked,drank some stuff.(HAHA!!!), listened to SUPER sad SAD songs...HAHA!!! and when we were heading out...we realised...that MY MUM wore esther's slippers out... -.-" erm.dots.dont even recognize our own footwear... -.-

:( ookk.nvm.just heard something SUPER depressing.soo.am no longer in the mood to blog...
i shall get things right first.before saying anything. :( :( :( but it does not sound good.

hmmm.was pretty busy the past few days.going for parties.and skipping parties.haha.and had rehearsals these past days.

and i am feeling rather tired.like there is no strength to go on. :(

bleah.

heck care about art essays. :(

hmm..today...was...such a sad day...bleah.it seems like all the sucky things are happening today.ending up sorta tearing up in the library. :( got news that ms goh pass away. this reminds me that life is so fragile.that we should not just take the crap from others.all that lies.and crap.and bullshit.sooo..conclusion...we should just live our lives to what we WANT. to enjoy it.and not feel crap all the time.
even though ms goh has never taught me before.well not directly anyway.but i still feel sad and felt like crying when i heard about it. : ( : ( : (

after econs lecture, headed to orchard to change my jazz pants.then wanted to go far east to do some shopping..lol..but it was already like..4.10.head to get back to school for shooting meeting...sooo...i gave up my much MUCH MUCH MUCH needed retail therapy.bleah. talked to esther for a bit. got back to school.(felt weird walking back in while everyone walked out.) shooting was kinda slack..haha.helped out with the trials. tried shooting with rifle.ok.now i know why i joined pistol.went to holland with qinwen, xinyi, ian hwee and samson for dinner at like 7 plus plus. haha.quite fun...cause...i sorta made a BET with ian hwee... GET READY PEOPLE!!! you guys are GETTING FREEEE drinks...five dollars min each. :)YES YES YES. :) *victory dance* but..if i dont fulfil my part...hahaha.i am sooo SCREWED. haha.yes.SCREWED. ookk.nvm.i wont even think about that.cause i KNOW i can do it! :):):)

then mummy fetched me from hv.headed to nus hostel to help tw.her room was kinda MESSY!!! and i spy my jeans in her really messy closet...hahaha.nvm. after that, headed home.bath.helped mum with bambi..yes.his wound is STILL there...and tried to do my art essay.haha. to no avail...

ooo.these are some of the neoprints taken yesteraday. :)
i miss esther after JUST ONE DAY.





What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

What you see's not what you get
What you see's not what you get

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone
I'm already gone
Oh, I'm already gone, gone, gone, gone
Already gone
I'm gone

TODAY WAS SUPER FUN!!! ohhhh boy!!! it is days like this which can cheer me UPPPPP!!! hehehe!!! love you esther and thanks for the GREAT night! ;) hahah.wellll...went for pw meeting at sab's house.then headed for tiong bahru to meet esther..hehe.i bought a few nail polishes from the face shop!!! hahah! ooo..bought colours like...blue!!! vampire red..and hmm.i forgot..i think there was a coral ...haha!!! nvm..i loved alll of them! and wanted to buy all.hahaha.shit.i should not even be thinking about doing that. :D hehe.played arcade with esther..had a GREAT time laughing at me losing..hahah.then shopped a little while.and had a candle light dinner under the (almost absent) stars.haha.marvy dinner! :) TRIED to cam whore..(HAHA!!!) well, the food tasted great! great company!great breeze! and wonderful self-played music. :)
after that...we headed to the neoprint shop...well..neoprints are not for ahlians..haha.cause..it just gets rather addictive and all...and we spent like twenty bucks there...lol!!! but whatever...cause we had GREAT fun doing it.hahahah!! :)
thanks esther!!! thanks for being there, listening to me grumble and crap about stuff.and remember kkk.i am HERE for you. :) love ya.and dont think too much.k?

i miss alllll of YOUUUU guys!!! piggy.charis.xwx.delly. :) and the whole of 4B1 2005. :):):)
muacks<3

welll...hmm...it is kinda weird today..but nvm.will get over it.

school.rara ponned maths lecture again..tsk tsk.miss her!!! :( it is gonna be weird NOT to see her and her pink bag anymore!!! urgh!!! :'( then had to go for this portfolio building talk..NOBODY was listening.haha.i was playing with my phone.ian and stella appeared to be sleeping.and roy was smsing me..haha.total retardedness!!! haha. sharmeen looked kinda stoned.and yet worried cause she and ian had to go see BC after the talk...about PW..hmm...hope everything went fine!!! :)

had lit lecture after lunch.and was missing text rehearsals...lol...after lit lecture, had dance auditions today...hahaha.was kinda hilarious...henryk and vicky took stella, sean and me under their wing(s).. haha.dance was pretty complicated. hahaha.kept forgetting the sequences!!! bleah...and after like three hours of sweating it out..it was our turn!!! hahahaha.this whole ACperience (lol) is kinda fun!!! :) man...am kinda worried tht training dates ARE going to crash with rehearsals...bleah...that will suck...

after the auditions, i headed to the void deck to CHILL with qy and weiting:) then sat at the bleachers...studying..and waiting for mummy to pick me up..lol.she took such a loooong time.haha.nvm.good time to study:) PROMOS PROMOS PROMOS!!!
yes yes yes.i must STUDY!!!!!!!!!!
and i miss esther! <3
had a great time talking to you yesterday.
and had a GREAT time talking to piggy too!!! :) <3>
and to delly welly tooooo!!! UPDATE ME!!! tsk tsk.even though we are in the SAME school we HARDLY talk talk. :(

and to qiuyan. dont worry about things okk? just let things be. :) you cant change it! :) ;) haha.
<3<3<3

miss you guys allll!!! to rissy and xwx.(even though you are ALWAYS MIA!!!haha )

and i still have no idea what is going on.

no, everything is not alright.

it IS my fault.

as in the negative things in this.

out of my head

haha.realised that yesterday i was too distressed to blog. soooo...

shooting party yesterday --
rushed home after lit to put stuff down.ended up raining in the rain :) rushed to imm to meet sarah, xinyi, melody and bryan. ended up running from the mrt to imm cause i was super late.but it was fun running. :) esp across the field. met them and went shopping for stuff for the bbq...after shopping...joshua came over...haha.so that he can pay for the cab.haha.headed off to saratri's house... :)

hahaha.the night was super fun!!! and got to know peng wei better.but i still have nooo idea how to spell her name.haha.oooo.zhixin and raymond, the new VP and captain :), got DUNKED!!! hahaha.bryan, the new captain for rifle got tao pok-ed too..haha.cause the guard came to STOP us from dunking ppl into the pool.so sad... cause we were all plotting to DUNK kahyoke in...but we had a substitute... :) hehe *evil laugh*we just took the whole bucket of ICE plus water and poured all over her...hahahaha.then the scrambling started..cause she was taking all the ice and trying to shove it down our backs..hahah.quite toot.but fun!!! :) kahyoke shall always be loved!!! <3 B.I.M.B.O. haha.i love her reaction when i call her that. hehehe. MG GALS ROCK!!!hahaha. oooo. then there was this battle between peng wei and me. haha.nanyang vs mgs. obviously MGS WON!!! hahaha. cat fight pics taken.and retard ones too.hahaha. :) lol. she is soo cute!!! <3
girlfriend!!! haha. WE LOVE OUR SENIORS!!! hahaha. <3 --shooting 2006-- to kiwi.
oooo.and baileys is kinda nice ;) haha.
and YOU, as in GABRIEL, gave me a shock of my life.

today was kinda slack.hahah.packed my files. and was kinda set off to study and mug. (which did not happen) watch harry potter 4 instead.hahah.ooooo.and just came back from marina sq.went there with my older sis to eat JAP DESSERT!!! haha.super yummy.with jap icecream.well.since it was her treat.it tasted good.hahaha.ooo.and the mochi.plus red beans.jelly.green tea syrup. yuummyyy! walked around abit.could not really find anything i like... ooo.and papa bought a guess watch for me:) hehe.even though it is not the one i was looking at...the british prints one.with exchangeable straps..but..nvm.this is just as good!!! :) haha. <3 (am sorry for making you fetch me about.)

maybe everything will be okay.i hope.
hope there wont be an episode two.i will just freak.and want out.

had shooting party today.was pretty fun.could have been much more enjoyable if something is not at the back of my mind.bothering the hell out of me.

went for shooting yesterday after having gp test.did not even shoot cause coach was not there..and the top notch room was locked..soo could not get the shooting specs...sooo gave up shooting after trying to cite the gun.haha.did the black men.walked to the mrt station with hwee.watched him drink his BLUE bubble tea on the way there.lol.ahd to try resist temptation to buy one myself.haha.mum picked me up somewhere.went home.haha :)
bleah. dunno why.feeling SUPER BLUE!!! bleah. :( told hwee tht i was feeling sorta sad. haha.in attempts to try cheer me up he sorta drew some stuff.v ugly.haha.joking!!! :) appreciated.

today was not much better. :( had a break first thing in the morning.ian was looking all sad so i bought him a pack of his fave gummy worms...haha.worked in the end.skipped art for gp consultation.and did not realise tht i skipped maths until like twenty mins after the lesson started... :( but i still got to see rara's new heart bag!! :) haha.super cute!!! after lunch was not feeling all that great. :( super sad after lunch.then in chinese started feeling worse.got a headache and stuff.soooo..after chinese, got mum to pick me up from school.shucks.feel super guilty for skipping lit!!!:( could not find ms ng..sooo did not get a pink slip. :( got home.felt better. read a funny book in attempt to cheer myself up.fell asleep.ate dinner.continued reading the book :) super funny.love the series of Angel..about this british girl :) haha. not the vampire one. lol. but still feeling horrid. :(

hehe.roooyyy told me tht i got the highest in the level for art essay. hahah. :) roy.pls remember. MBT!!! hahah.work hard!!! :)

not having a split personality.

founders day on 25th (tues).went for the ceremony in the morning..haha.was supposed to meet piggy, deborah, jas etc at like 645..but i left the house at that time...lol.met them at like sevenish.haha.waaaay late.sorry you guys!!! esp deborah...since you live soooo far.yet you came to school like SUPER early...sorry!!!met ms tan with piggy at the back gate... :) she tried dragging us up first...but we left to meet the rest first at the concourse. hahaha.omg!!! i got a shock of my life...when i saw the BACK of this girl...and when she turned around..my first reaction was..."what the hell is she doing here?-- isnt she supposed to be in AUSTRALIA!?!?!" then (ok.i admit i was pretty slow) i made this connection. OMG!!! SHE CAME BACK SPECIALLY FOR THIS!!!!!!! was super SUPER SUPER HAPPPPPPPYYYY to see her!!! haha.but was kinda shocked at first!!! hahaha.could not make the connection at first...YES YINLING!!!:) miss ya! <3haha.and i totally love your black stockings and your australian uniform is SUPER cool with the pleated scottish skirt and black stockings!!! super sexy ;) haha.all of us headed for the library -- v pretty and classy.sorta with all the flat screen coms.haha.a BIG diff from the old one.hahaha.all the 4B1 girls of 05 gathered ..(sorta) at the front of the library.and cam whored the whole time...haha.ok.we took loadsa pics.with clara being the SECRET photographer...

omg.i realised that both of us graduated from kindergarten TOGETHER in the year 95 and now, we are graduating together AGAIN!!! yes CARROT!!! i am soooo sorry for pissing you off in the year 95 for calling you carrot.haha. <3

while waiting, took pics of jas trying out slut poses.and pics of trying to seduce ria..haha.yes.v les bian. haha. omg.and i squeezed my size six feet into my sis' size five shoes..damn painful.my fault.haha.forgot to go and buy court shoes.hahah.super exciting day!!! went on the WOBBLY stage.super freaky. *wobble wobble* haha. had tea reception.none of the nice nice eclairs that they have EVERY year.but it was still nice gathering with ppl. :)

went to venezia with piggy. talked and stuff :) miss her loads!!!then headed home to study for my gp test tmr. :( haha.slept for a while.went to meet charis, debbie and jemmy. and then headed for charis' house. :) janiella gave my quite a SCARE.hahah.she is super cute!!! haha.love her!!!<3 reminded me of the time when she wanted to tag along with us to sakae for dinner.hahaha.amused me soooo much!!! hahah. :) omg.and i took a pic of charis' stuff.super scary..haha. :)

went for the dinner.was late.haha.what is new? lol.hahaha.not as fun as last year.. (DUH!) but not as fun as i expected it to be..the teachers look quite sad... :( omg.and we sat like super near jt.hahahahahah.seeing him reminds me of the time he burst out in class.yelling at us that he was facing problems and tht he broke up with his gf of like four years over the phone.lol. then angie and christina came!!!:) hahah.christina gave me her usual greeting of a cat.lol.supoer cute!!! but i have nooo idea why she cut her hair...

super sad.could not find ms tan or mr yeo :( and did not catch mrs raj... :( WHY WHY WHY?!?!?! bleah.nvm. nine years left!!! :)

to mg 05 <3

met ppl at wheelock place to celebrate sara's bday. :) ara ara !!! RARA is sexy SEVENTEEN!!! :) ate at NYDC for either a really late lunch or a really early dinner.haha.at first there was only juliannnneeee, sara, noah and me...but the others came later..haha.like hannah, huixian, joshua, jackson, junqi. :) after that..we walked around a bit.then went for DINNER!!! haha.at scotts.after dinner...jackson proposed that we go to macs for some fries..haha.but in the end... the girls (except julianne) went SHOPPING!!! haha.and the guys went home...haha.noah looks super weird today..hahah.with his new new new hairstyle.not used to it..soooo i kept laughing when ever i see it.hahahahaha.superfunny. damn.should have taken a pic.hahahaha.all of us teased him..saying tht we much rather his FLOPPY look..with his natural (poofy) hair.haha.all swished to one side.haha.
omg.far east has got like SUPER nice stuff. :) bought a necklace and a super nice ring!!! :) yea!!! accessory shopping!!! :) haha.dad picked me up...apparently they were shopping at centrepoint..and mummy bought like five bags... haha.and when i told her tht her fave shop at far east have new stocks..she offered to go next week.haha.dunno if she was joking..lol.

had GREAT fun today..even though my bruise (from ian tai- the person who is gonna DIE ) is getting black and blue. -.- like the whole area... :( boohoo.

was having some really weird thoughts this morning... dunno why. and i do not have split personalities. it is just that i am a deep thinking.an avid thinker. hurmph.

you know, i was hoping time will just heal and things would be okay.
well...maybe not.

BLEAH...man...drama filled.

GREAT JOB QIUYAN!!! you danced wonderfully today!!! and looked super CHIO!!! ;) hahaha...seee.it is a great to be blessed with nice straight hair!!! :)

<3>

and you too.

omg.am like doing the lit board thingy.and it is sooooooo wonderful and nostalgic to walk down that memory lane!!! boohoo.haha.i am like laughing and crying...haha.cause it is sooo sad for the memories that can never be true again.but it is wonderful and happy just recalling all the fun, joy, laughter, little bits of peevishnesss. haha.yeaH!!! all of it.the good and the bad...even though there wasn't much "bad" stuff. hahaha.remember the biaatching night!!! :) haha.and all laughter we had!!! XD haha. this is a summary of ALL our reflections!!! :

Our experiences from this trip cannot be described in just a few words or a few pictures. The close bonds and kinship formed between all of us is beyond description. The close bonds were displayed spontaneously as travel companions, classmates, friends and most importantly, sisters in Christ during this trip and this made us understand each other better.

The main purpose for this trip was to soak in the English culture when England was at its peak in literature and the arts and to cultivate our love for English literature and the arts. Through this trip, we walked away with more than that. Speaking from our own experiences, when one falls ill in England, it is always fun to have someone there for you and to take care of you. However, please note that it is NEVER advisable to slap pimple cream on cracked hands as it has adverse effects. (Haha!) In this trip, wonderful memories were made and pleasures were shared and not a single one of us regret ever going. :)

haha.miss them!!! <3>

and this is not CLICHE!!! (punch the stupid person who told me blah blah blah.) yes, i am talking about u.

haha.had training today. blah.okkk.i am not gullible.i am not gullible. i am not gullible.
haha
i AM NOT GULLIBLE.

yes.
i am not.haha.

i love englandddd!!! :) hahahaha.but not enough to move there to stay for the WHOLE year round..cause it gets kinda cold in the winter. haha.and i will just freeze to death.with super dry and cracked skin. yes.deborah nearly killed me.hahaha. ;)

OMG!!! today is like the BEST DAY!!! :) hahaha.am going for FOUNDERS!!! hahahahah.the DINNER!!! yea!!! super fun!!! hmm...hope mummy will allow me to pon school on weds so that i can sleepover at charis' housE!!! :) hahahah.super fun!!! haha. hair.nails.makeup.dress.shoes.bag. haha.super fun!!!

today was basically a pretty slack day.when i thought it was going to be SUPER hectic.lol. watched chinese opera for chinese period.then went for pw.where all the DEP students were gone.sooo..free period.then went for gp.and had my self imposed break where ian and conray talked CRAP.then mrs loh wasnt in school.sooo...had another break.then school ended for chinese listening.lol.dont even have to come to school.
haha. then spent some time with gab. then headed for training with zhixin.haha.thought we were going to be late late late.but..lol.only five mins late.anywayy..we had to wait for lanes...sooo..zhixin, qinwen, ian hwee and i went down to the cafe to "study". haha.finally there were lanes.soo we went back up to shoot.haha.lol.my score today sucks.haha.was dead tired!!! just wanted to shoot finish and get my butt out of there. that was basically how all of us felt. haha.then.IAN HWEE TOOK MY P BOX!!! yes.my fluff. my pink fluff. hahahaha.tsk tsk.anyhow take.haha.man..i must remember to get it back from him tmr morning.one prob.he is currently phoneless. or at least. that is what he says... haha.bluff me too much already. haha.

SUPER EXCITED!!! AHH!!! cant WAIT!!! hahahaha.miss ya loads esther, piggy, ria, charis, xwx (even though you dont wanna TELL me anything.haha) and deb. <3

oohhh yeah.lit projectfor ms tan.man.shall go start on it noW!!haha.

btw.i rate you a ten ok.a ten.

DRAGGEEDDD myself out of bed in the morning. had the 31st council investiture today...ate into PE! haha.yea!!! saw aunt mary.haha. she still looks as youthful as ever!!! haha. then headed for class. chinese then lit.had my weekly monday SIX periods of lit up til 0110. with NO breaks.haha.ookk.but i managed to eat during lit.and chinese.with my trusty bag of snacks.haha.no wonder i am getting fatTTTEERR!!! :( bleah.shucks.
had lunch.met angel!!! :) talked to gab for like only five mins.went to library to crap with roy and lala up till two thirty.and they left for their very imp meeting.with the PE dept.haha.headed for econs lecture.had a talk with rara. love ya babe! :) <3>
haha.

headed for hv.ate at swensons.did loadsa CATCHING UP!!! hahaha. :) oooo.jas spitting the water in her mouth.man.have not REALLY laughed like that in a loooong time!!! :) haha.i LOVE mg company! haha. :) miss how mummy-ish ria is.haha. :) and deb's attempt in KILLING me. -.-" hahaha.she reminded me today.hahaha. :) had loadsa FUN!!! then went home.studied chinese.ate strawberries. (pretty sour. :S) and talked to tyson.haha.i am weird. -.-"

haha.should go do art now!! i am DROWNING in art homework.both theory and prac.mr dunn wants ELEVEN A4 drawings on perspective..where in the world can i get nice nice nice pics??? :( bleah.

and i am sorry.it is just a natural instinct.

The Real Me.

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test81.aspx

haha.ookk.personality tests...haha.this is getting a tinnie winnie bit weird cause i should be doing my art thing.haha.shall go do it now!!! :) hehe.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! was just looking through pictures in the computer...and all the old memories just come FLOODING back. :) haha. and cause ms tan wants some of us to do something on the england trip...i was looking through THOSE pictures.so sad!!!AHH!!! i miss those GREAT DAYS!!! :) haha.and i remembered all the fun. memories made and pleasures shared.
and this one brought back hilarious memories. :) this was taken at the moat house.on the second day in england in the morning.hahaha.we woke up to the shrill ringing of the hotel fire alarm.and since it was exactly the time the teachers said we should wake up...we all thought it was our wake up call.but something was REALLY wrong.as it was reverberated through the hallway too.hahaha.super funny.OUR HOTEL WAS ON FIRE!!! hahahaha.so all of us just rushed out.jas and i were like..."nooooo way am i running out in my pjs." haha.since i woke up super early.i was already changed.and i waited for jassy to change.haha.super fast!!! HAHA. :) we ran down through the stairs.hahaha.and saw those BULKY yellow men.hahahah.with their equipment. ;) haha.everyone gathered at the space behind the hotel.some mg girls were still in they jammies and leemey even had her toothbrush in her mouth.hahahah.and was barefooted.heheh.it was pretty amusing.hahaha.turns out that some dumb ass tried to smoke in a nonsmoking room. errrr...hahaha.spastic. lol.

AHHHH!!! I MISS THE OLD ENGLAND GROUP!!! :) ria, delly, qi, fran, jess, deb and jas who is in ac with me.but the only time we talk is in the morn. bleah. hahah.nvm.at least i enjoy doing this for ms tan!!! :) haha.

talked to ria last night.and i realised that i miss her loads!!! haha.her quirky habits.hahaha.likee...eating her vitamins (A WHOLE LOAD OF THEM) in the morning.haha.and..she is misophobia.hahah.fear for DIRT!!! hahaha. :) <3had>
: RIA !!!! dont worry too much. :) all the best for your AS!!! and i know YOU CAN DO IT!!! :) hehe.muacks. love ya!!! <3>

haha.talked to esther yesterday too.hahaha.love her!!! <3>

Leave me alone

This isn't gonna work
Don't call me on the phone
Because I'm all out of words
I'll face the unknown
Thinking about all the ways that I've grown

swim meet today.hahah.dragged myself out of bed this morning.went to school.had a STRING of classes.from morning to lunch.(YES!!! without a single break!!!) my timetable is screwed up.but i sneaked biscuits in pw lecture.haha.then headed for art.during which i roamed the school with roy in search for some interesting stuff to draw.but we ended up in the library with lala.hahaha.after that i had art tutorial.which was kinda interesting because we were classroom-less.so the three of us plus mdm went to find for one.class was about neo classicism, romanticism and pre-raphaelite movements.then had lunch and went for swim meet.haha.ian got hold of this wallet.(apparently belonging to conray) and he dug through it.and found neoprints.hahaha.and I SAW THE JUICY CONTENT!!! haha.and roy was abusing me...with the sudden wham and the "massage" .gee thanks.that gave me a SHOCK.haha.and it was pretty painful.haha.plus the finger thing.even ian was abusing me. with the wrist thing he promised wont hurt.hahahaha.nvm.he got his punches.haha.ditto to roy.haha.sat in the bus with qiuyan and weiting.had to share a seat with them.haha.at toa payoh swimming complex, i sat with joshua, darrell and ian.sharmeen went off to wave the AC flag.conray joined us.and IAN overturned MY HONEY STARS!!! hahaha.nvm.he got super dirty because of that.hahaha.and i made him clean it up.conray was killing ian for showing me the neoprints.hahahaha.and i did not even know him.hahaha.and i REFUSED to tell him my name.stupid ian. -.- because of him..i got this super weird nick.haha.nvm.he got gayed .haha.oooo.juicy stuff heard.but i dont exactly know the full details..cause HE REFUSED TO TELL ME! toot.hehe.took a cab with ian, conray and xinyi to dover.and headed for training with xinyi.haha.shot horribly.listen to coach tell us about HCL.hahaha.(HCI) and the genius shooters.tsk tsk.sometimes i dont even know why i am there.haha. headed home with zhixin and xinyi after training.

hahah.in this day.i got poked.punched.STRANGLED.and called a himogay. -.- ok.nvm about that.
AND i talked a little while with my FRIEND IN TAIWAN!!! :D hahaha.after like one year.hahaha. :) super happy that i did so. :D
and i am missing ria. <3 and esther, delly welly, xwx, piggyyyy, charis.haha
MUACKS <3

the murals of life pass me by
sometimes i just wish that i never did cry
shed a tear for you today
sometimes i wish i could just lie down and die.


stop it.

oooo.i real need for retail therapy.haha.PIGGY JAS CHARIS!!! AHHH!!! so sad.we were supposed to go SHOPPING today.but...change of plans.so sad.cause there were loadsa sales today!!! like at zara, forever 21 and armani.omg.zara shoes are like on offer!!! JAS!!! a good opportunity missed to get your gold heels!!! haha.sad.then wanted to go shopping at night.but mummy was kinda tired..sooo..she promised next week.haha.tried to persuade TL to go with me for a little sisterly bonding.and she said no. -.-" ok.i can tell that she doesn't really like to shop.yet.haha.sooo.i just stayed home after dinner.doing my gp resource book.hahaha.super dirty.

went to the beach yesterday after school which was half day.then went home.dinner.headed to orchard.shopped.even though i didnt really buy anything.hahaha.except for a cd.bought the veronicas.when we were shopping halfway.met TW's friends.and she left us.haha.after shopping went to fetch TL.fetch TW's friends home.then headed for home.

ooo.just had a talk with elise... :D haha.missing her!!! haha.realised that it has been a long time.and time just flies.that she has been in aussie for like seven years already.haha.hope my parents allow me to go visit her after my As!!! haha.will be SUPER FUN!!! hahaha.wooopppiieee! am happy just thinking about it.haha.

thank you qiuyan. :D i got tagged. ;)thanks for everything :D love ya girlfriend! ;)
we are lovers.haha. thanks for your encouraging words. i shall try to be DEAF! haha.

missing you guys. <3

omg.i realised that i posted this song lyrics up before.haha.
rumours - lindsay lohan
Saturday steppin' into the club
And it makes me wanna tell the DJ
Turn It Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[Bridge:]
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

[Chorus:]
I'm tired of rumours starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

[Bridge:]
Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
But not the way you want me to

[Repeat Chorus:]

I just need to free my mind
Just wanna dance and have a good time


I'm tired of rumours
Followed

What they (follow) me
Why can't they
let me live

Take this for just what it is

art exam in the morning.for like THREE hours.hahaha.wrote like twenty pages in total.man.i crap a lot.haha.then it was like SUPER cold in the SMR.teeth was like chattering and all.found out that we arent gonna be doing clay work yet.hmm.wonder what we will have to do.hope we can try like ...er..FASHION! haha.man.after one year on my fashion...i am supposed to be kinda sick of it.but...haha.what can i say? fashion designing gives me the excuse to shop more.haha.after art exam, i headed to the canteen with roy.who was also like semi frozen.waaa.both of us looked like we are walking in snow or something.as he walked with his head down as if trying to curl up ...haha.then he showed me the mp3 functions of his NEW phone (and his nice voice). went to the canteen and ate.listened to NICE NICE NICE songs with qiuyan.hahaha.*my heart is pumping for love* hahaha.super fun to just laugh.then went for classes.had gp, chinese, lit.lit was kinda fun.haha...oh.something else..topics talked about in some time of the day was..thought provoking.then after school headed down to the canteen.sat with sharmeen and ian.then sharmeen left.leaving me with ian. -.-" and he made me tell him the WHOLE story of silent hill.and i suck as a story teller...bbaaahh.haha.he had to stay back for DETENTION.haha.then Hweeeeee came.and started getting ill.the disease of itchy hands. =p haha.kept playing and opening my stuff. -.-" and he helped me cont the silent hill story.and then ian started showing his LAST SUPPER. -.-" errr.haha.and i apparently deleted one of his venice works.oopsie.hahaha.then jas came.and ian headed off for DETENTION. met piggy with jas at the mrt.went to hv.hahahah.super fun!!! had loadsa updates.and they had loadsa updates too.hahah.went to burger king.sat there and just TALKED.omg.i am so jealous.they went out shopping on tues while i was having cl oral.-.-"omg.miss their company sooo much.and jas was like.soooo cute!!! haha.she was thinking up of all these excuses at a surprisingly super fast rate!!! haha.sooo..i told piggy to give it a rest.cause it was RECORD BREAKING! haha.as piggy said.six GREAT things happened to her today.hahaha. love them <3>

then mum came to pick me up.and we went to ntuc.bought my darling milk.haha.headed home...had no appetite for dinner.haha.lucky my mum was not forcing me to eat.haha.so drank soup only.and went to tackle gp.then the chinese project.and talked a little to piggy.SWOONED over kaka.haha.and comparing sources.hahaha.BTW piggy, lzs is lame.haha. ;)

man.i need my sleep.haha.zzzzzzzzz bah.i miss esther. ;(

maths exam

maths exams today.plus a levels oral...haha.man.i screwed both up. maths.maths.i am like in shock that i am FAILING maths.i KNOW that i am just going to fail it.bah.shall find for a tuitor.haha.ookk.dont have school tmr unlike the rest of the school.haha.cause of art exams.hahaha.man...oh yeah.haha.shucks.just found out that i dont have to go for shooting nationals tmr.hahaha.ooo.all the better.haha.man.but i wanted to go.haha.oookkk.nvm.there is shooting PARTY coming up soon!!! haha.man.i feel like watching a chick flick.hahaha.and just laugh.and forget about stuff.bah.today...esther got me worried in the morning.YES ESTHER!!! I WAS V. V. V. V. V. V. V WORRIED!!!haha.lucky i was smart.and smsed cow asap. :D hahaha.sooo.cow, you owe me a DIOR bag.hahaha. ;) no lah.joking.if you wanna buy a dior bag...buy for esther. ;) ;) ;) *wink wink* *nudge nudge* haha.hope all is better now!!! :) (ps: see esther.i am helping you hint for a new bag. haha. ;) )

haha.the day started with maths exam.then sat with ian(tai) (ie the hong kong er wanna be.haha.) for lunch.and i made him talk to me in chinese the whole time.haha.and he was like swearing (trying !!) at me in chinese...yes.imagine him calling me female dog in chinese.hahaha.
tsk tsk.so vulgur. -.-" haha.but i was super fun to see him all REELED up with my rantings.hahaha.and he vandalised my nice chinese news paper with his WEIRD drawings.which he claims is used in the ancient times to summon the demons and monsters.haha.then we headed off to the "slaughter house".for our chinese oral.sat at the benches with jo, hannah, joshua.lucky people who dont take chinese anymore...that joshua and hannah and eleen.hurrying off.haha.

bah.heard something v v v v sad today. :( saddening.and another thing which hurts. *stab stab* and something which perked me up.hahaha.sooo it was a full circle.haha.oooo.and someone asked me to go out on a ride.hahaha.a car ride.bah.no way.it is like...errr.how dangerous.hahaha.dont trust other ppl's driving skills.hahahahaha.oookkk.man.the song now stuck in my head is by sugababes.haha.IT IS STUCK!!! hahaha.and...cant wait for thursday you guys!!! :) haha.miss ya!!! shall bring my camera! haha. kk.shall go..erm.do other stuff.haha.

BLEAH.i shall stop thinking.haha.it is damn stressful.

errr...the morning started off with someone pulling my hair and hitting my head. -.-"
okkk..football.BRAZIL LOST! haha.
Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
cant wait for sat!!! :D haha.<3

haha.got this from zhixin...haha.

Fyi : If you crossed out more than 50
boxes, means you're a spoilt brat =D

[x] Cell phone.
[ ] Own phone line.
[x] Own room.
[x] 2 or more storey house.
[ ] Hot tub.
[x] Guest room.
[x] Have own computer
[ ] TV in your room.
TOTAL: 5

[x] Your own bed.
[x] More than 20 pairs of shoes.
[x ] More than 10 bags.
[ ] Expensive sunglasses.
[x] Name brand wallet.
[ ] iPod.
[x] mp3.
[ ] Xbox.
[ ] PS2.
[] PS1
[ ] Gamecube
TOTAL: 5

[ ] Basketball hoop.
[x ] Basketball.
[ ] Netball hoop.
[ ] Netball.
[ ] Volleyball.
[x] Badminton racket.
[x] Tennis racket.
[ ] Air hockey table.
[ ] Pool table.
[ ] Ping pong table.
[ ] Foose ball table.
[ ] Trampoline.{small}
[ ] Own a snowboard.
[ ] Own a surfboard.
[x] Own a pair of roller blades.
[ ] Own a pair of figure skates
[ ]Own your own bowling ball.
[ ] Own a pair of bowling shoes.
TOTAL: 4

[x] Stereo in bedroom.
[ ] DVD player in room
[x] Have something from Abercrombie
and Fitch
[x] Gets more than $50 each month.
[ ] Shop at AE.
TOTAL: 3

[x] Does something expensive often.
[x] Parents are still together.
[ ] Step mom/dad
[ ] AIM.
[x] MSN.
[ ] Yahoo!
[ ]AOL.
[x] Digital camera.
TOTAL: 4

[ ] Scooter
[x] Bicycle
[ ] 4-wheeler.
[x] Guitar/drums.
[x] Keyboard
[x] Any other instrument
[ ] Hammock.
[] been on a cruise.
[x] Sat on a train.
[x] Took a plane.
[x] Traveled out of the country.
[x] Personal trainer. --> haha.my personal dog trainer..haha.
[x] Expensive jewelry
[x] Met a celebrity.
TOTAL: 10

[ ] Straightener/curling iron.
[ ] Spent more than $100 on your hair at
one go.
[ ] Been to a batting cage.
[x] $100+ on you right now.
[x] Own savings account.
[x] Been to Europe.
[ ] Been to Hawaii.
TOTAL: 3

[ ] Been to NYC.
[ ] Been to Chicago.
[ ] Been to The Statue of Liberty.
[x] Moved more than 3 times.
TOTAL: 1

HAS:
[x] Pet
[ ] Ranch.
[ ] Verizon.
[ ] Cricket.
[ ] Virgin mobile.(last time)
[x] Nokia
[ ] Alltel
[ ] Tv-mobile.
[ ] Sprint.
[ ] US Cellular
[ ] Nextel.
[ ] Motorola
[] Sony Ericsson
[ ] Been to states in the US.
[ ] Have a job.
[x] More than 100 buddies on friendster
TOTAL: 3

[x] Alarm clock
[x] Home cooked meal almost every day.
[x] Eat out almost every day.
[x] Been in a limo.
[ ] Own camcorder.
[ ] Own laptop computer.
[x] Own desk
TOTAL: 5
woohoo.i am not a brat.hahaha. :)see esther.told you so.i am not a spoilt brat.haha.

baahhh...i went to the library to study...haha.for art.then went orchard...bought a new p box...this pink thing.hahaha.super cute!!!WOOHOO! had bonding time with my DOG!! haha.played with him.haha.hugged him and he started SLOBBERING over my thigh since i was bending down..baaaahh..haha.yelled his name from the other side of the porch...and he was like TOTALLY ignoring me.then he just HAD to drink water.bah.and then HE CAME RUNNNINNGGG over.gaaaww.haha.i love him and all.but.man.the slobbering is just.urgh.haha.with water dripping too.baah.but he is myyyy ppoookkiiieeekins.haha. oooo.talked to piggy loads.like went through our past memories.bah.so sad.tearing.about our mugging.bitching.raving sessions.omg.and the famous swensons KETCHUP BOTTLE!hahaha.super funny.haha.and the CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN!!!hahahaha.which i got a FULL view of.haha.and a little bit of a SPLATTER on my lovely black boots.haha.and charis wondering what is the brown stuff doing on her nice white clutch.hahaha.and alllll our lovely birthday celebrations!!!(NB: charis' one is coming up.) hahaha.gaawww.miss the times.haha.anddd..there is the addictive neoprint taking.hahaha.woooppiiiee! the NAUGHTY playground!!! hahaha.we gotta head there soon! hahaha.super fun.hahaha.with piggy doing the pole dance.HAHA.ookk.tht sounded like waaaay wrong.haha.man.cant wait for our next outing! hahaha.missing you guys loads! hahaha.bah.i gotta get a dress.makeup.hair.man.there it goes again.haha.man.remind me of last's year's haha.went to forever makeup to do my makeup.hahaha.it looked kinda weird.haha.too ...errr..shiny.and glittery.and my hair ah.ooo.oh yeah.i still have that hair clip thingy.realised tht i have not used it since that night.haha.damn.shall use it soon.haha.hope it gets confirmed soon!

<3

man.it has been a BUSY day for tongs...
got dragged out of bed by mummy...ate breakfast.lazed around.then headed to ngee ann.met my dear esther.ate with her classmates.smsed xwx asking WHERE IS SHE!?!? wanted to meet her..but..she was at SIM eating lunch.baaahhh.then met like danielle...who was rather surprised to see me there.asking if i was in ng.then headed to holland.sat at coffee bean studying my art...then esther called to say she got dismissed earlier!!! yea! went to meet her.waited for van at sp.sat in those box thingies. we talked.played with her com.played cs.and her bubble thingy.haha.then van came.and i headed to the library.and walked home...and papa picked me up on the way..and we headed to mg.to fetch TL.and to pick mummy up..then headed to orchard.with papa telling us the unfortunate events of yesterday.where he and meng uncle went to this jewellry exhibition thingy.and papa bought some rocks.(ehh.no comments) then a cisco security guard came up to him to ask for is ic.hahahah.man.tht poor guy.quite dumb to ask my DAD for tht.man...papa was ok with it.except for the idea that he is paying for horrid service.meng uncle was feeling the heart ache...which is pretty serious!ookk.sooo papa brought the matter up to the organisers.haha.see.poor guy.man...have not seen the rocks yet.haha.stones.rocks.stones.rocks.ok.nvm.then we ate dinner at fareast.saw sammie!!!! haha.so cute! my canoeist friend.hahaha.then shopped.WOOOHOO!!! i bought a JUICY COUTURE bag.hehe.and earrings!!! haha.mummy bought shoes.and evening bags.hahaha.MY MUCH NEEDED RETAIL THERAPY!!! haha. it was fun!!! but sad lah.could not go with piggy.zheng min and diane. baahh.or to go with esther and van.came home and did some eye facial thingy for papa.hahaha.quite fun.haha.ehhh.and to esther.cheer up.i cant really say much.cause...haha.i shant just say say say.and not do it too.haha.cause i feel what you feel.and i am ...in confusion.haha.sooo..hope tht i helped a little with cow.

btw.SOMEONE aka the sneeze said this phrase.. as ugly as you are pretty.what does tht mean? hwee? i think you are crapping.again. -.-"cause..it does not make any sense and you are just TRYING to outtalk me.haha.note the TRYING.

<3

blah.gawwww..had my lit exam today...hahaha.oookkk...thought i had like sooo much time..two hours and fifteen minutes seem like a lot of time for structured qns on comparison and contrasting two poems and the DOM essay..but..man...i had like only five mins to rush a ten mark qns... -.-"
but overall..this exam is one of the better ones so far..haha.shall not jinx it man...haha.then i walked around with roy and stella doing some stuff...THANKS roy for helping me photocopy all those art notes.haha.then there was this board with all the names for chinese oral exams.yes.it is the A levels..haha.and...my name was not there..haha.but i saw ria and angel's wonderful familiar loooong names!!! hahaha.weird.the acs (international) ppl names are one that board..hahaha.but it is wonderful just seeing their names..like the good ole mg times..hahaha.man.ookk.then went home...and i just lodged myself in front of the tv.watching mtv.hahaha.and reading mags at the same time..haha.super fun.have not done that in a looong time.went to sleep.and then piggy called!!! hahaha.nice time talking to you!!! hahahaha.hmm...do you think hollywood secrets is a good place to do hair? charis did hers there last year..and it turned out FANTABULOUS! hahaha.super fun!!! hahahaha.must go dress shopping!!! hahaha.angie said that we should all just wear jeans and cause a revolution...hahaha.and to see the expressions on the teachers' face.hahahaha.ookk.as you can see.i am pretty bored.haha.just dont feel like studying anymore!!! yes.yes.still have maths and art..hahahahaha.and i should go complete my table thingy for art..hahaha.and to do another cubism work...lol.shall do that later.hahaha.like maybe...erm..okk.nvm.hahah.man.so sad lah. was meant to go out tmr!!! with piggy, zheng min and diane...but...URGH! my mum said she rathers i go out with her...but i just pissed her off.soooo..erm..she says tht it would all depend on her mood tmr.hahaha.and then i got a date with wanky...but...i cant make tht either.bleah.sooo...nvm.am gonna meet her for lunch anyway.haha.

oooo..watched oprah today.man.it was such a great episode!!! ookk. it is based on this book written by Elie Wiesel called Night. which is based on his memoirs on the holocaust. He is the author of 36 works dealing with Judaism, the Holocaust, and the moral responsibility of all people to fight hatred, racism and genocide...man..he is like totally inspiring...and there was this essay competition for teens on oprah.and 50 finalists were at the show..and..man...it was sooo touching!!! there was this particular finalist who actually was a holocaust surviver...she survived the genocide in Rwanda...and had not seen her family for TWELVE years!!! except her sis...man.that is like sooo sucky! and oprah gave her a gift.of meeting her family once again.by flying them over to america for rwanda.man.it was sooo touching.i was like crying too.haha.

"Never shall I forget that night, the first night in camp, which has turned my life into one long night, seven times cursed and seven times sealed. Never shall I forget that smoke. Never shall I forget the little faces of the children, whose bodies I saw turned into wreaths of smoke beneath a silent blue sky.
Never shall I forget those flames which consumed my faith forever.
Never shall I forget that nocturnal silence which deprived me, for all eternity, of the desire to live. Never shall I forget those moments which murdered my God and my soul and turned my dreams to dust. Never shall I forget these things, even if I am condemned to live as long as God Himself. Never."
Elie Wiesel's Night

i mean.everything is just sooo inspiring.to make a difference.to touch hearts.to heal minds.and souls. haha.ookk.I MUST GO READ THAT BOOK! haha.i am like DYING to read that book now.shucks.hahaha.oooo...my older sis is going away tmr!!! hahaha.older sister free for the weekend!!! hahaha.ookk.i was like bothering her by fanning her while she was counting her money..soo money was literally flying in her room.hahahaha.and i miss my pookiekins..i realised that i have not been spending time with him... :( gaawww.miss him loads.even though he is like outside in the garden..hahaha. <3>

ookk.art.manet is a impressionist but is also a french realist..sooo..what does he come under?!?!?! which movement!??!man.ookkk.

am missing you guys loads!!! haha. yes.including you too cookies...fine fine.amos.haha. :D hahaha.hope you are well! other than your exams! hahaha.and...drink more water!!! haha.h2o is like tong si's all rounder remedy.hahaha. and get well soon qiuyan!!! haha.

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE FOR THEIR EXAMS!!!
and thanks for alll your concern!!! to sara and julianne.thanks kk.and to noah too.hahaha.yes.i know... -_____- hahaha.love you guys! <3




hahaha.am bored..sooo i did quizzes..haha.yes.back to the old times...doing quizzes when we are all bored piggy.hahaha.esp you.you influencer.hahaha.

what is your love icon?
Your icon shows pain in a realation ship. You've gotta stabbed before and it has never healed. Your forever afriad of a true realtion ship. Anything can happen just follow your heart and you'll find theres more to guys than just looks.

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ookk.this is the first and only quiz i have done so far.man.i should stop.haha.

gawww...econs exam today totally sucked!!! hahaha.but the good thing is...delly has found enough ppl to form a TABLE!!! haha.or CLOSE to finding..haha.means..we are like SHORT of like three ppl.hahaha.cant wait!!! haha.after econs..hang out a little while at orchard..then headed to the library to study.hahaha.which i totally did.except..i fell asleep.holding my Duchess Of Malfi (DOM) book...hahaha.man...so i bought a cuppa hot chocolate to perk me up..but..i fell straight back to sleep after drinking everything.man...hahaha.but at least..i read the whole commentry!! haha.then i just could not take it..soo..i went home.haha.lol.super sad case.then i was walking home..and ...i saw a familiar back..hahahaha.mmmyyy broooo! haha.man.caught up with him...and we talked about erm...floor ball.hahaha.ookk.then he tried to outwalk me.which he totally did.hahaha.i am such a sad case.then i tried to sleep.but...sigh.came all the way home to sleep.but i cant sleep once i go on my bed...sad.soo..i did lit.again.haha.after dinner.went STRAIGHT to the com to read up stuff on DOM...hahah.then ENHUI came along..bugger.haha.feminine name rightt..hahaha.boon.haha.rriigghhtt.sigh.shall head back to studying my LIT!!! hahaha.my FAVE SUB!!! yea.hope i do well.man.feeling kinda nervous for it.hahaha.first time sitting for a lit exam after view from the bridge...OMG.and there is comparing and contrasting two poems.damn.gotta go revise.haha.

I HAVE REDISCOVERED MY LOVE FOR LIT!!! <3>

haha.MISS ALL YOU GUYS!!! <3>

the problem is i really dont know what i feel about everything now.
bleah.oh boy.ooo..gotta go get court shoes.haha.omg.i actually studied econs today!!! haha.

OMG.i dunno what to say.i dunno what i am supposed to feel.i dont know what to do.i dont know what to think. shucks. i suck. :( bleah.URGH!!! URGH!!! URGH!!! URGH!!! URGH!!! i dunno.maybe it is me all along.it is JUST ME. :(

ookk.had gp and chinese exam today.then went to holland with qy.went coffee bean to just sit and talk.haha.love her. <3

missing the old crowd loads still. :( <3<3<3

OMG!!! i totally forgot to put WHAT we dared piggy to do!!! hahahaha.

SHE DID THE CHICKEN DANCE IN THE MIDDLE OF ORCHARD ROAD!!!

hahahaha.muacks to all of you guys.love you kkk... ;)
and i am SOOO dead for exams.haha. Xo hahaha.DIE.

ookk.today went orchard.walked a lot.went to the starhub centre to renew my plan.and i now declare centrepoint as a super boring place..hahaha.other then the pooh thing which was going on...the rest of that place was like...erm...ookk...hahahahaha..and walked a LOT.to paragon.taka.wistma.waaaa..i saw this really nice bag from guess.and my dad was instigating me to get it.but i feel kinda guilty spending like so much..soooo...i was like NOOOO i REALLY dont want it.hahaha.man...this is called kou shi xin fei...hahaha.damn.have to study for chinese.and how in the world am i gonna study for GP?!?! die.
hahaha.and i have like weird parents.my dad was like saying tht we should all go into gucci so tht he can get my mum a NEW bag...but my mum was like...i dont want a new bag!!! I WANT NEW CUPBOARDS!!! hahaha.shucks.weird.hahaha.

-.- am gonna be soooo dead for exams.shucks.shall go study now...hahaha.

LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU GUYS!!!
to esther, pig, ria, charis, jas, adele, xwx etc.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! it was SUPER fun today!!! hahaha. waaaa...missing them already!!! dont want the time spent with them to END!!! E.N.D. bleah. well.at least we had our huggy bears! hahaha.yea. hahaha.ookk.went to orchard earlier to do some errands for TA.and mum.and...then...went to buy some stuff.hahaha.then met THEM!!! the ppl who make me smile.haha.hahaha.then...we MET ...AND!!! OMG!!! PIG WAS THE LATEST TODAY!!! nvm.her bday...hahaha.ooo. it was like RED day...haha.all of us wore red.or maroon.haha.hahaha.did not really expected jas and charis to be there like SOOOO early!!! like it was only about twenty minutes after the meeting time!!! waaaa!!! I AM IMPRESSED! and then we all went to forever 21.and i bought my sunglasses.finally..hahaha.i shall buy another one like during the dec hols...hahaha.and charis bought a new top.hahaha.whoopiiee!! haha.then we headed off to swensons..but detoured to guess...and then to swensons..and we just queued..FINALLY we got our table..and we ate talked bitched complained moaned laughed suaned talked take pics giggled snorted imitated mocked etc.hahahaha.i MISS THEM SO MUCH!!! omg.sighh...hahahaha.it has been ages since like ALL FOUR OF US ACTUALLY WENT OUT!!! hahahaha.and we made plans for the dec hols..hahaha.and after As..hahaha...then...after we ate...we had dessert..hahaha.shared like EIGHT scoops of icecream..hahah.omg! we actually finished!!! haha. weeee..hahaha.then we went to heeren..and TOOK LIKE NEOPRINTS!!! hahaha.has been ages since i actually took neoprints...hahahaha.miss doing tht.hahaha.had sooooo much fun taking them !!! hahaha.at the NAUGHTY PLAYGROUND!!! hahahahaha. (quote jas) hahahaa...and pole dancing..hahahaha.then we just sat and talked...hahaha.miss the good ole times!!! bleah.super sad tht this day had to end..IT HAD TO END!!! WHY?!?!?!?! hahaha.HAPPY BDAY PIGGY!
piggy's bday BASH!!! hahahaha

ookk.i just remembered what someone told me yesterday... haha.kinda weird...rriigghhtt.hahaha.ookk.shucks i cant get any work done!!! BLEAH.i am like super slacker..while the whole world is MUGGING away...bleah.and had a nice chat with my dear dear wangky..hahaha.miss her. <3
haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIGGY!!! <3>

haha.gonna meet you later for you to meet your doom.be prepared ;)
haha.

haha.ookk.am in a GREAT mood today!!! cause...i GOT MY LETTER!!! hahahaha.YEA *victory dance* hahaha.but.funny.THEY FREAKING changed the venue!!! nooooooooooo!!! means...ten years down the road..it wont be in the same building?!?! in the same ROOM!?!?!? breathing the SAME air we did ten years ago?!?! hahaha.ookkk.melodrama.hehehehehe.

WOOOPIIIEEE!!! cant wait!!! hahaha to like seeeee ms tan!! AGAIN! and be in THE HALL!!! hahahaha.WALKING UP THE STAGE...to collect my CERT!!! hahaha...waaaa..picture perfect.hahaha.hope i dont like STUMBLE and fall.hahaha. and i get to seeee allll those lovely ppl of 4B1 once again!!! hahaha.but i know some of them are not going.. -.- " due to schoolll...

i feel tired.seriously.i just.want to leave it all.and go back time.

bleah.i am such a sad case.oookkk..i cant sleep.was like tossing and turning.and tried to induce myself to sleep with the help of Bach.but.to no avail..bleah.and the DOPEY medicine does not really help much.hurmph.bbbbllleeeaaaahhh.oookkk..and then i did the unthinkable.hahahaha.i dont really wanna think of the consequences yet.hahaha.rriigghhtt.wangy just said to blog it off.haha.get stuff off my chest.i was thinking of eating a kit kat.hahaha.she thought i wanted to eat a timeout.hahahahaha.anywayyy...i really wanna type what i feel.and what i think.but i have to constantly remind myself that this it the internet blog man..haha.shant be too toot.hahaha.soooo...there is always like erm...a barrier...haha.nvm.oookkk.and i know that someone is gonna just kill me soon.hahahahah.for what i just did.bleah.ookk.it just feels..sigh.ookkk..i am not really feeling all that great now.like am in a hot boiling cauldon of water.hahahaha...rriigghhtt.yeah.am boiling with carrots.and celery and potatoes.HAHAHAH.with tomatoes..hahaha...oookkk...as you can see.the drugs have FINALLY !!! (YEA *jumps for joy*) taken in!!! hahaha.sooooooo.i shall go try once again.to tuck myself in my nice comfy bed.and nice comfy blanket.with my nice comfy pillows.and my nice comfy bolster.hahahahahaha.with my nice comfy pink dog.HAHAHAHA.right. -.-" waaaa...am talking to charis now...and it has been a long time man.i really miss her. bleah.ooooo.and now.piggy just came on.sooo.shall talk to her for a little while.hahaha.yeAhh.feeling happier now.hahahahaha.with my gfs in da building. :D yes.i love you guys.i am a les bian.hahaha.yea.everyone should start taking french.HAHAHAHA.get the joke??hahahahhaha

PIGGY ...muuuhahahahahhaha.waiting for your upcoming dare...c***** or l***.your choice.hahaha.or...hahaha.

oookkk...am like a little pig of the house now...hmmm..but a pig who eats only porridge the wholeeee day... :( bleah. ookk.and just SLEEP.
haha.today for chinese oral..it was pretty embarrassing..cause..i could not think properly ...and just STONED there when she asked the qns.and had noooo idea what to reply..was just thinking of how to concentrate on not vomitting.hahahahahaha.ooookkkk.and in the middle of the oral.i ran off to the toilet to puke... bleah.SHUCKS!!! oh man...that like sucks!!! sighh...ooookkkk.soooo...i did not go for range today...hahahaha.like DUH.took a cab home.man.thank God that a cab turned in..haha.if not i would have to walk in the rain...trying my best to hail a cab.and walk.hahahaha.rrriiigghhhttt.

sigh.this sucks.being ill sucks.being faaarrrr away from my friends SUCK!!! :( i miss MG. :( boohoo.oookkk.sigh.i know.it has been such a long time already.but the feeling is still there. BLEAH.hehehehe.miss piggy. like how i just read her blog..and she said THIS :" (ok, this is making him sound like some pregnant lady)" ...and i can like TOTALLY imagine her saying tht.hahahaha. MISS esther too.bleah.and Ria.and XWX.sorry you guys for like falling ill NOW!!! at this crucial period of time where we can actually HANG out!!! sighhh..sorryy..after my terms kk.

btw.i am not gay.i am les.YOU are les.plus GAY.hahahahah.rrriiigghhhttt. :D and i am not a PIG.hahaha.i am tong si.

haha.rriigghhtt.

and you can have him back.all these's making me feel really tired.i just want this to stop.

HAHAHAHAHAHA...ookkk.am like SICK now...haha.ookk.nope.am not sick.am ILL.hahaha.sick people are people like IAN HWEE.haha (hope you are reading this now!!!) hahaha.i am ILL.haha.sigh.it is like a super sad case to be sick during the hols!!! ahhhhhhhhhh.and there is like chinese oral tmr..tell me.how am i supposed to think with my brain all messed up with drugs??? sigghhh...oookkkk.and just found out..with a reminder from ian..tht there is STILL coaching tmr...-.-"and on fri.and on sat. too.hahaha..oookkkk..i just spent my whole day sleeping...zzzzzzzzz like a PIG.hahahahaha.saw the docs today...super sad when he asked if i needed a MC...and i said noo... :( hahahaha. ookk.must recap...

SAT
went for the shooting competition at CDANs...and had to wait..soo..went to get some FOOD with ian..and i bought yummy.delicious chocolate ECLAIRS!!! and then went to shoot...hahaha.then FLEW out of the building to go to pig's church...and then sat there for a LITTLE while..and then went home to change and headed to esther's house...hahaha.oookkk..now..the BBQ.hahahaha...esther look soooo red.hahaha..sun burnt..hahaha.oookkk..and then...my nose was on the drip the WHOLE day..thought i t was like like sinus or something...sooo...i just ignored it.hahahaha.dumb me.oookkk.and the bbq was kinda fun...cause i got to see my dear dear dear esther...hahahaha.even though the smoke and everything was like bothering my nose and eyes..i still did not regret going..hahaha.then came home.and just zonked out.hahaha.

sun
SLEPT LIKE A P.I.G the whole day!!!

mon
went to see docs.slept the whole day...omg.i am such a pig.hahaha.ookkk.shall go my med soon..haha
am high on drugs..HAHA.

i sooo did not steal.

haha.okk.woke up like SUPER early today...actually overslept a little bit.haha.slept through my alarm.rushed down to somerset mrt.actually jaywalked outside my house!!!haha.one of the first time..haha.ookk.

ESSAY FOR IAN HWEE.

IAN HWEE is an idiot.hahahaha.no lah.he is a weirdo.haha.and a kinda nice guy who always pretends to be the bad guy..haha.act cool..haha.ok.i am crapping here.

1000 words.hahaha

there.done.MR Liew..i have done my one thousand word essay already..haha.

ookk...esther...i am soo sorry!!!

oh yeah.i have a daughter SLASH son..haha.and his name is joshua.hahaha.rriigghhttt.and he/she has to wear pretty dresses.hahaha.

ooo.am thankful tht it did NOT RAIN TODAY!!! :D my prayers were ANSWERED!!! haha.yea! haha.had like loadsa fun today...haha.even though i had to wake up like SUPER early..haha.like at about 7.haha.cause had to pack and everything..haha.then headed down to harbour front.to meet claire and abi. :D we went to cold storage to stock up on FOOD and WATER.haha.met xwx, leemey,jiaen there.jas was still like SLEEPING when i called her..sooo.yeah.she is a PANG SEI-er.tsk tsk. even for dinner also lazy to go...tsk tsk.haha.okk.went to sentosa.palawan beach.haha.took some time to settle down.then went tanning in the morning...CATCH the MORNING SUN.as we were all scared tht it was gonna rain the afternoon.haha.applied like a WHOLE loada tanning oil.haha.talked a lot.got to know my ex classmates EVEN better!!! :D haha.a lady came up to us to take pictures of us..hahaha.some of the shots are here!!! :D

oh yeah.then we went to like gambled.haha.played bridge.eat.swam.tanned.and then i had a great talk with WAH.haha.super fun lah.except tht i had like bites all over my back..haha.cause we went to a rather SECLUDED place.hahaha.sat by the sea.on the rocks.under the trees.super fun! :)haha.spent like hours there just talking.and talking.hahaha.then we came back.everyone took a bath already.so i ran to the washroom to bathe.really rushed.cause i dont like to make ppl wait for me.haha.then we had to try to get rid of alll the extra stuff we have..haha.everyone like went in a circle.and like took stuff.haha.then there was like ONE bottle of water left.and nobody wanted to lunge it home..sooo.we played a drinking game ;) haha.played black jack.and the losers drink the water.hahahah.so weird.hahaha.

then the rest went off.and wah and i met lorry for dinner at bugis.ate sakae..haha.and the cashier was like wah's old friend..soo...hehe.

thanks to all those who care. :D really.i appreciate it!!! :D like cookies, pearleen, joshua.thanks you guys.
and thanks to nicolas!!! :D

hehe.ok.recount of past week.haha.

5th june :
went to BV mrt to meet the ppl to go to NACLI.was kinda nervous.cause was going for a camp where i dont know anyone.other then piggy.haha.yeah.haha.papa dropped me off at BV mrt.had to lunge my big big big big big bag ..haha.took the bus 200 to NACLI.felt kinda weird at first...haha.cause..piggy had to leave me alone for a little while cause she was room ic...haha.ooo yeah.we were like SUPER HAPPY tht we were in the same room!!!:D hah.then we went to kent ridge park to play some games...and then lunch.food was kinda good.haha.at least above average.then we CHECKED IN!!! haha.
okk.this was the room at FIRST.hahaha.then we sorta messed it up unintentionally.haha.i am surprised..haha.cause..normally..i dont really like a messy bed..but in this FOUR days..i did not once packed the bed.hahahaha.ooo.and our room had a theme of "marine" sooo we got like beach scenes and the clouds and sky on the walls.super soothing.haha.so jap style too.and we got like two toilets.haha.sooo..lucky us.haha.

haha.ok.now i cant be bothered to like do day by day.maybe tmr.hahaha.cause...i am like super tired..haha.sighh.ok.shall just load the nice nice pic of the nice nice ppl i met.hahaha.am happy to know them!!!:D super coolicious..haha.

hehe.there they are!!! zhengmin.and isabelle.haha.GREAT to know them!!! :D really FUNKY ppl.haha. :D new b-i-m-b-o ppl.hahahaha.

ookk.
am back.
church camp was fun!!! :D met like some really nice ppl..even though it is quite different from all the other camps and all..it has its unique features.and it is an interesting experience overall.hmm..shall go redo allll the notes i took down for each message session...so tht i can really really remember.
haha.ok.shall and must go sleep.slept for only about three hours last night.haha.or rather..this morning.hahahaha.