man. i am feeling so FRUSTRATED and CONFUSED! and this isnt how i am supposed to feel!
i mean, i wanted this. but when it happened, i start thinking of other possibilities. and what i have to do...and it gets so frustrating because i feel so much like calling her back to reject her offer. yet , this is something i wanted to do. something i want. right? i was sooo excited to get her call. yet, now, why am i feeling this way? you pointed all the consequences. i cant meet up with my friends, i cant even meet up with elise... sigh.. this is hard!!! and the thing is,i HAVE to make up my mind like NOW! because i am leaving tmr! GOSH!
ok. i guess i will just jump into it right? and see how it goes along. and hope things dont and wont get ugly.