i must control.
i must have control.
pls. help me esther.haha. shopping

hmm.i went shopping today.haha.at zara.man...and everything was like RED.but i was bent on getting something.sooo.i bought like two RED tops(as in bright RED) and a blue one.haha.siiiggghhhh.ok.i am dumb.dumbbbbbb.

i am trying.trying.trying.trying.

lalalalala. IT IS A LOOOONG WEEKEND!!! XD super HAPPY!!! heehee.met up with esther at orchard today. man...she is spending money like water. haha. and the cow was instigating her to spend more money.tsk tsk.went for training in the morning.haha.had fun in the gym.and watching everyone flopping like dead fishes on the carpet.hahahahaha.so weird...but i gotta remember that i am one of them.hahaha.a DEAD fish.no lah.more of superman/superwoman.heehee.and when training ended, ian hid samson's phone under his towel.and samson was like looking alllll over for it.haha.and he actually asked ian to call him.hahahahaha.and alll that while, it was in ian's hand.heehee. well.zhixin, saratri and sarah did not go for today's training.so sad. :( after training, we went to play a little basketball.reminded me of ALLLL the FUUUUN time esther,xwx,adele,jo, and i had.bleah.oh yeah.reminded me of mr ng and shilin...hmmm.wonder if she still remembers me.haha.wonder how she is now.and her sis.haha.okkk.sighh.MGGGGGGGGG...

the past week had been really really really really really hectic.haha.like i was sleeping at around two to three plus everyday.haha.in need of zzzzzzz.just came back from shopping with my mum.haha.and surprisingly...she was kept asking me if i wanted this or that or this or that or this or that etc.haha.so weird.well.today..i was not the big spender.actually.these days..i am not much of a spender.shopping wise.haha.today...it was MY LIL SIS!!! woahhh..haha.okkk. am just in a state of shock.haha.well.she is my lil sis after all.haha.

MISS ESTHER PIGGY XWX. <3<3<3>

bleah.i should stop it with the obsessing of something.cause.the feeling sucks.STOP IT TONGS.

bleah.training ended REALLY late today. haha.ok.not LATE LATE.but late.haha.if you get what i mean. and i have to travel ALLL the way back. haha.

I MISS YOU PIGGY.
I MISS MG.
I MISS MS TAN.
I MISS MR YEO.
I MISS 4B1 2005.
I MISS PURPLE COW.
I MISS SEEING YOU GUYS!!!
bleah. this sucks.
talked to piggy yesterday.(well am talking to her now too) but yesterday...she was painting vivid pictures of our "lives" together. in the same JC. the same class. the same cca. pictures of us tying ropes together for odac. and looking at hot guys together. biatching about stuff. and like basically TOGETHER. bleah. MISS ESTHER LOADS TOO!!! hahaha.chatted with her just now when she was in her lecture. heehee.FINALLY!!! SHE IS IN SCHOOOOOL!!! hahahaha.

<3

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

this sucks. really really really really really sucks. big time.sigh.sigh.sigh.

wish that i did not poke.

and now. i feel much worse.

MISS YOU.
thinking about you.
thanks for being there for me.
always.
to wang and pig. <3

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YOU ARE BRAINWASHED.
THE LAST POST DID NOT EXIST.

anyway...I AM NOT TELLING!!!
ahhh. too bad.

miss you.

but you know.

bleaahhh.this sucks.

D.E.pressi.O.N

it has been a VERY depressing week.and it is only tuesday today. sighh.nvm.talking to angie, piggy, and last but sooo not least, my dear dear ELISE has brighten up my DAY!!! ahhh..gave her an update from sinagpore...haha.missing her loads. and miss angie too!!! I WANNA CRASH MG LESSONS!!! esp. ms tan's lit lessons and mrs chan's art... haha...missing mr yeo too... AND FOUR BE ONE 2005 ROCKS MY FREAKING STRIPED ANKLE SOCKS!!! ahhhh...lol.am like chatting with elise..about CRAP!!! haha.we are such bitches.heehee.both self-proclaimed.and materialistic people.hahahaha. oh yeah...have to go reread the very very very interesting email i got from esther...hahahaha.some parts are quite accurate;) ahhh.oh yeah.esther.so jealous.sigh.nvm.will date her some other day. :D

hmmm.econs test today...surprisingly and weirdly similar to geog.oh no.facing the monday bluuuueeesss. missing esther loads.and xwx. :( and piggy. and basically MG...miss ms tan.hmmm.ooo.am so excited about the upcoming uk project thingy..but i have like noooo idea..should be the normal things..like pics.etc..:D but seems a bit the normal.haha.yeah.

YEA.am so happy that esther has got a new and active blog!!! am able to stalk her somemore..haha.no lah.she is MYYYY girlfriend.soo...stalkable;) sigh...art is like so sucky.cause my painting sucks.so sad... URGH! that like sucks BIG time.aww man.sigh.looks so bad that i just wanna THROW IT AWAY!!! ahhhhh. shit.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.another factor...

d.r.o.w.n.i.n.g

my shoes are soaked.

haha. I CHANGED MY MSN PASSWORD!!! ;) see how are you going to think of the password...haha.:D hmmm. it is a VERY wet day today.so sad.had to walk in the rain with my art piece.and the black mounting board was running. not good. sigh.so sad.am supposed to have an early day tomorrow.but because of lit...i have to stay back till like 3.10... so sad. ahhh
and i hope my mum would allow me out tmr with the old AD2 class..!!! i REALLY HOPE SOOO!!! i so want to hang out with them again... i REALLY miss them loads!!! ahhh. well...pray hard!!! :D haha.

THE

FUGUE

is pretty confusing.haha.ok.shall go work on it now.hmm.plus stupid econs essay. twenty five marks.for a demand and supply essay.what am i supposed to write about!??!!?! haha. so toot.

BEEP.

b.i.m.b.o. day.

hahahaha.ok.hmmm.EMOTIONAL BASKET CASE.haha.ok.random.well.am like doing my art essay.hahahaha.have to write about one of the well-known paintings done by either one of these three artists...van gogh, paul cezanne or paul gauguin.hahaha.ok.hmmm.have having a little problems choosing which one.since i am like CLUELESS about everything.haha.ok.well.hmm.today was a rather slack day.but have like absolutely noooo break.sooo.i had to sneak eat waffles.haha.hmmm.rah rah commented that i am always having waffles in my bag.haha.cause it was like that yesterday too.well.i get hungry easily.haha.and my bag is like smelling of waffles.not good.not good at all.haha.ookkk.hmm.i got sabo-ed to do the fashion show for the international friendship day...ahhhhhhhhh!!! haha.at least i have roy to accompany me.hahaha.but it is so toot lah.SAMMIEEE.tsk tsk.sabo-ed me.actually i LOVE fashion shows!!! haha. as long as i am the one watching. -.-
ahhh.so sad.found out today that rah rah is leaving for the US...:( like in the middle of the year.boohoo.it is sad lah.only four more months.:( nvm.i make friends to keep!!!:D haha. oh man.
hahaha.i was feeling a bit the weird walking out of school today.cause i was like so slack.haha.today is like the cca day...and shooting has not started yet.haha.well.sigh.hope when it starts..it would not get too hectic.haha.i heard that there is gonna be training on sat too.physical training.hahahaha.ok.
and a tribute to the GUYS OF ex-1AD2 / happy birthday you guys!!! to CLEMENT and SHENGZHONG!!! happy sweet seventeen.haha.ok.that sounded weird.
ahhhh.so happy that i talked to charis yesterday:D it has been like such a long time since i talked to her:D and she is GETTING A HANDPHONE!!! yeaaaa!!! haha.that is going to be sooo much better... haha.YEAH! cant wait for tempest!! haha.i am desperate to stay out late!!! it has been such a long time since i stayed out late with my friends!!! haha.missing you wangity!!! MUACKS<3>

Into your head, into your mind
out of your soul, race through your veins
You can't escape, you can't escape.

Into your life, into your dreams,
Out of the dark, sunlight again.
You can't explain, you can't explain.

Can You feel it, can you feel it,
Rushin' through your hair,
Rushin' through your head,
Can you feel it, can you feel it,

Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

Pulling you in, spinning you 'round,
Lifting your feet right off the ground,
You can't believe it's happening now.

Can You feel it, can you feel it,
Rushin' through your hair,
Rushin' through your head,
Can you feel it, can you feel it,

Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

It takes you to another place,
imagine everything you can.
All the colors start to blend,
Your system overloads again.

Can You feel it?

Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

Don't let nobody tell you,
Don't let nobody tell you,
Don't let nobody tell you your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Give into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

hmmm.weird mood.and.and.and.dots.dots.dots.nothing.

well..hmm.went abck to mg yesterday..hahahah.very the weird.cause...like almost all the teachers went home already.hahaha.anddddd.that ms tan ahhh.went on a two month attachment with a british company ahhh.soo super cooool.;)hmmm.she is like able to conduct lit tours..hahaha.she already went to new zealand..to the LOTRs filming spots;)hahahaha.miss her loads!!! ahhhhh.haha.took a cab down with piggy.and we met with a RUNNING mrs channny.haha.purple princess.(or is it cow)haha.nope that is what she calls us;)cows.tsk tsk.nvm.it is called a pet name;)hahah.well.she was dragging poooor saraphina.haha.yelling at us to hold that cab for her.haha.well.lucky we did not buy the intended cake.haha.if not only mrs raj and mr yeo would be eating it.hahahaha.so sad lah.well.at least we got to talk to both of them.and able to eat the malay stall's chicken briyani.haha.without chicken.well.at least for me.haha.miss saying that.hahahaha.good to be back at mg:D heehee.well.am like trying to crack my mind open now.thinking about my stuuuupid scarcity mind map.there are just tooooo many things.it is like EVERYTHING.tsk tsk.cant really fit it in the A4 sized paper.hahaha.well.too bad.sighhhh.got ___ for my econs teacher.sigh sigh.hope i will still be able to score in econs:( HOPE.hmmm.have FAITH.well.pardon my pun.

well.am kinda stressed about my art too.mr dunn said that i gotta SPEED UP!.haha.well.hmmm.cause i have to get my photos and all.well.GO TOOT TOOT TONG SI.haha.

and.HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY TO YOU HIU XIAN!!! :D haha.

it is a whirlpool inside my head.:'(

:D ok.yesterday was like soooo fun! the gals went BOWLING.and ARCADE!haha.and we took neoprints!!!haha.heehee.well.we were at like marina south.(very ULU place)haha.and we had to walk like a looooong way from marina bay mrt station.haha.under the hot sun.without my trusty sunnies.heehee.well.still fun anyway.was able to catch up with XWX.;) haha.and Real Kool too.;)heehee.well.Wangiddy too.hmmm.i will make MORE effort to stay close to them.haha.well.ooo.at the bowling alley.i sucked at bowling.haha.it started off with esther, then ria, then me.then last.but not least, XWX.haha.well.i started off with like knocking ZERO pins.while the others could at least hit something.haha.then...FINALLY! i got like a freaking STRIKE.haha.heehee.YEA! well.nothing to boast about.haha.cause after that i still sucked;) well. then we played the second game.heehee.annnnnnd.i was like DA pro.;) haha.esther and i were competing.heehee.super FUN la.haha.awwww man.i just got a call.annnnd.i was reminded of the zouk party.haha.well.really wanted to go.but...i could not find anyone to go with. :( and i thought soph is not going.sigh.haha.but...nvm.i shall be a good girl;) (as if.) and to stay home.using the com.haha.so toot.well.i got STUCK in the lift today.hahahaha.soooo funny lah.adding on..i was like in a rush.i know man.that sucks.rush to meet my freaking early curfew.haha.i was one hour ten minutes late.haha.well.lucky i did not get scolded or anything.haha.well.but the bad thing is that when i got home there was like noooo more food.which like sucks.but nvm.i made my own sandwich.with cheese.haha.HAD A REALLY WEIRD DAY.heehee. ;)

oh yeah.CLASS PARTYYYYY!!! haha.super FUN la.but too bad i could not stay out with them for dinner.:( BUMMER.but.we went to rah rah's beautiful.wonderful.house.haha.REALLY cool house.she got there.and we watched like silence of the lambs.haha.freaky.but since it wasn't in the night.sooo i wasn't freaked out.haha.and we watched the famous...BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN.haha.well.gay scenes.really weird.haha.well.no wonder it is R21.haha.hmmm.jake vs heath.hahahahaha.hmmm.loadsa hanky panky.;) hahaha.rah rah's dog is like soooo cute.the pug and the husky.heehee.well.the pug is cute.the husky is beautiful.haha.HAD A FUN TIME!!! hahaha.
oh yeah.before i went to meet the ppl at far east...met sad case.hahaha.right.yeah.took neoprints!!!hahaha.well.sad case cant smile.hahahaha.so toot.heehee;)
ps.I LOVE ATTENTION.JUST NOT FROM YOU.hahahahaha.right.my new top. ;)

heehee.ok.i got pissed today.not in the drunk manner.as in the angry manner.well.ok.it sounds really petty.hmm.nvm.am not angry anymore.:) went out with pig today.and then gab came along.ooohh.i bought a new top.ok.no.TWO new tops.haha.both are like black.haha.coolicious.well.we stoned at coffeebean for a WHOLE hour.i am like SHOCKED that i can actually stone.haha.well.HE made me angry one.not my fault.haha.well.it is ok.i shall live with it.hmm.not typing any secrets online.haha.not that dumb.=p well.CANT WAIT FOR TMR!!!! CLASS PARTYYYYYY at rah rah's.heehee

Since You've Been Gone

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

:D

siiggghhhh.well.very confused what to dooooo!!!there is like the options of taking four h2 subjects.but i dun wanna be like DEAD.and have NOOOO social life!!!well..have already handed in the appeal form and all.but just have not registered for my subjects yet.well.that is like SUPER freaky man.what if i make the wrong choice?sigh.adding on.not much mg girls came to ac.so sad.was actually looking forward to see my good friends.:( well.it is ok.Ria thanks God anyway for his will:D MISS RIA!<3>

YEA!today was like half day..:D.haha.sooo..ended at like 11 am.heehee.sorry that i did not go with my class.or rather.a small group of ppl from my class to seoul garden.haha.sorry.was not really in the mood for a buffet!!!soooo...i headed home to do my work..haha.am such a good girl.haha..sigh.the a levels results are out today..annnddd..my sis seems REALLY sad about it.sooo.i dunno how she did.haha.nvm.hope she will cheer up.:D haha.had FUN today!!!haha.but.school starts AGAIN tmr.sooo.am back down on earth once again.haha.well.back to GP.haha.found out tht i the 12 articles i did are like wrong.sooo.have to like REDO.haha.sigh.it is like SUPER toot lah.haha.blame me.never READ properly.haha.:) (: GP.

hahaha.went to the beach today!east coast.went cycling for two hours.haha.oooo.she said tht she saw james there today.haha.did not see him.haha.very long since i saw him actually.haha.oookkk.hmmm.it was REALLY fun today!thought it was gonna rain.but.instead it was a VERY good weather to be at the beach.:)

haha.piggy likes someone!!:D haha.right.hmm.went to buy my uniform today from lidos.and 14 was like outa stock.sooo i got size 14 half.and the skirt is like SUPER long.haha.but shall go alter it.and after lidos.mummy, tw,tl and me walked alllll the way to john little.haha.and bought stuff.then we walllkkkked allllll the way back.cause the car was parked at lidos.haha.yeah..and we stopped by paragon to buy some other stuff.and walked.and walked.and walked.and we went home.then i painted my toe nails RED!!haha.the same colour as the pedicure i had in the hols.heehee.love it!sighhhh.nvm.