http://www.hwachong.edu.sg/newsEvents/jcdsa/index.htm
hmm.am feeling a bit stressed out.i did not know tht it is gonna be so soon.have to send out the applications soon!!!and get my resume!!!and i just realise tht under the achievements area.it is gonna be quite blank.ohoh.and *hazel is extremely weird and she seems like she is not feeling any anger!!!such a weird girl. and *esther is so angry.filled with negative emotions and being all so angry.and plotting and plotting and plotting.and it scares me sometimes.well.am doing some quizzes, hoping to destress.

what color rose does you soul have?

Your Results:The red roseyous is the red rose you have love for many and think there might be a god but your not yet sure you cant stand to know that people you love are hurtting because it hurts you also so you try to make them happy in any way you can

Hey ya Tongsi!
haha,yeah....I like your blog too..
I'm typing this in the computer lab,with Charis...
While you guys are having Amaths tests..
muahahahaha....
I never regreted dropping Amaths...^_^

yippee!!!have a new cool funky hip and RAWKIN' blog skin.:P and i have to now figure out how to work the stuff out.lol.hmm.am still not planning to talk to the girl who sits next to dawnie.well g2g eat my recess.extremely imp period of the day:)

well...from dots to pink and beautiful ans then back to dots...well....hmm...was in an extremely brain dead mood today...was practically laying sprawled on the floor...(due to overusage of brain cells)...and too much laughing went on with me...and i have no reason why...but...(yes...there is always a BUT)...i feel so..melancholy...i mean i wanna go to the IB program...i mean...i seems totally rad..and cool...AND...the elite...yeah...tht is why to enter i have to get like...6 to 8 points...sigh...have to work a lot harder...hmmmmm.and the girl whom i am currently and maybe forever not gonna talk to is extremely DOT DOT DOT.sigh.nvm.ps . i love colourful and hot pink dots...well g2g do my geog thingy...:P

lol...just wrote a poem...must edit first..:P...am in one of those moods...:(

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??" - Results:
i am feeling extremely confused and angry...not hurt...she was not THAT close to me yet...but sigh...i now know the meaning of blood boiling...haha...

"What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)" - Results:

You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're confident, independent, outgoing, and love attention. You might become a star one day. All the girls like to follow in your foot steps because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't care about anything. You make the rules, never follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy. That could be bad. But keep the attitude. That's what makes you, you. hahaha...very funny...lol...btw, this quiz is from quizilla.com...lol

Moonlight
You have moonlight eyes. Moonlight is the color of mystery. Your eyes symbolize your ability to see yourself as others see you. You have finesse for letting other people know what you think. You have a soothing and calming ability that you may or may not know about. You have the awesome ability to draw a person's negative energy out and replace it with a positive energy; the world needs more people like you. Some words to describe you: patient, self-controlled, perseverance, insightful, reflective, understanding, serene, and caring.

lol...did this quiz about "what kind of eyes do you have"...hmmm...very weird...heehee...dawnie dearie did this test too...and she is eden...can check it out at her blogger...:Pand a note to dawnie...please keep you letter size on my blog at tiny or small...i don't mind the colour red..(even though it messes up the colour scheme..)heehee...sigh...am thinking about founders day dinner...am partially excited and partially...er...how do i put it this way...er...bored about it...don't get me wrong...yeah it is exciting and all..but the fun part is preparing FOR it...not at it...it is so fun thinking and choosing what am i wearing, my nails, my toes, my shoes, what accessories etc...yeah...OH... and what hairstyle...i bet it is gonna be so fun just preparing with my galfriends...(yeahyeah:qing.jas,charis, dawnie,ria,estheretc...)...heehee...i am so gonna fail this chem test!!!i shall not put anything up about it just in case some one who read this has not taken the test...;)heehee...well...gonna do my CSI project now...:)

Haha,pardon my blurness....I didn't know we were able to invite others to publish in our blogs.Till Tongsi sent me an email inviting me...=)
I'm in the library now,freezing my fingers off and typing away in on the keyboard.Its Chemistry period now,but I don't take Chem,or Additional Maths...coz I refused to take them.I guess,since its rightfully Tongsi's blog,I shall keep my usual rambling thoughts and feelings to myself and restrict to only school related stuff.
Hm,yesterday our principal called out an emergency meeting for all Sec 4s.Apparently,the Ministry of Education have decided to go back to the former system,and count our Prelimary Exams on our entry to JC or polytechnics.I know Tongsi's intending to go to a JC,and I have confidence in her that she definately will without trouble(You can do it Tongsi!)..coz she's hardworking...and posesses the brains to do so...
But it brings to mind those who are intending to go to a junior college but the prelims may be alittle difficult for them to get in.I guess I should be worrying about myself to,as I don't think I can even get into the course I want for poly with my impending prelim results.But I've learnt to become more concerned for others,instead of being selfcentered and worrying about me,myself and I all the time.They've got to work really hard...I've heard the prelims tend to be more difficult than the O level papers...
Honestly,I WAS nervous...and racked with anxiety when our principal broke the news to us...
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I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

Psalm 32:8

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However,we must remind our selfs to keep our focus on Him.I was reminded that I seemed to be praying desperately for strength,and wisdom in the current circumstances...

And I will continue on to pray,to pray for wisdom and peace beyond understanding..

-www.individualistically-different.blogspot.com

Dulce Et Decorum Est

Bent double, like old beggars under sacks,
Knock-kneed, coughing like hags, we cursed through sludge,
Till on the haunting flares we turned our backs
And towards our distant rest began to trudge.
Men marched asleep. Many had lost their boots
But limped on, blood-shod. All went lame; all blind;
Drunk with fatigue; deaf even to the hoots
Of disappointed shells that dropped behind.

GAS! Gas! Quick, boys!-- An ecstasy of fumbling,
Fitting the clumsy helmets just in time;
But someone still was yelling out and stumbling
And floundering like a man in fire or lime.--
Dim, through the misty panes and thick green light
As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.

In all my dreams, before my helpless sight,
He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.

If in some smothering dreams you too could pace
Behind the wagon that we flung him in,
And watch the white eyes writhing in his face,
His hanging face, like a devil's sick of sin;
If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood
Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs,
Obscene as cancer, bitter as the cud
Of vile, incurable sores on innocent tongues,--
My friend, you would not tell with such high zest
To children ardent for some desperate glory,
The old Lie: Dulce et decorum est
Pro patria mori.

lalalala..heehee like tiny tiny words...:P sigh am feeling so restless and hot...the air is so humid and i just wanna lie on my bed and just watch tv...sigh...stupid tyson...he kepts biting tong li...he is driving me NUTS!!!but on the other hand, he is a smart dog...i found his choker chain buried in one of his hiding place after like...3 mths...and he is really cheeky..like when i hug him, he bites my hair...sigh,but he is really a sweet dog once he is trained properly...he bit and growled at uncle lee yesterday...so scary...am going to buy a muffler for him as he spoilt the one and only existing one in the house...sigh...he is draining my money...am going broke because of him...sigh...my lil baby...

just read dawnie's bloggg...very sweet...ok...but she does not like to be known as cute/sweet...::...and ria's sitting next to moi now...am a teenie weenie bit disppointed...about my english...and bioloy test...but well...i knew about the bio test...but for english...?sigh...i feel that ria is an extremely religious person...she scolded me yesterday for saying that we all have "a demon" in us...what i meant is that we all have a dark side...then she scolded me...:(...oh welll....not the first time.she has scolded me loadsa times for saying something which i think she thinks in ...sigh...::...she just broke my chain of thoughts..."critiria""bacteria"...what's the diff?still "....ria"...lol...anyway..i think that she thinks that a lot of things which i have said is extremely offensive...but...sigh...this is how i was brought up...i dunno...maybe i am not 'fated' to become a christian of something...i reallly don't know...am feeling exceptionally confused and haggard today...

"Rumors" "Saturday steppin' into the clubAnd it makes me wanna tell the DJ Turn It UpI feel the energy all aroundAnd my body can't stop moving to the soundBut I can tell that you're watching meAnd you're probably gonna write what you didn't seeWell I just need a little space to breatheCan you please respect my privacy[BRIDGE:]Why can't you just let me Do the things I wanna doI just wanna be me I don't understand whyWould you wanna bring me downI'm only having funI'm gonna live my lifeLike I wanna do[CHORUS:]I'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off meWhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it isHere we are back up in the clubPeople taking picturesDon't you think they get enoughI just wanna be all over the floorAnd throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)I've gotta say respectfullyI would like it if you take the cameras off of me'Cause I just want a little room to breatheCan you please respect my privacy[BRIDGE:]Why can't you just let me Do the things I wanna doI just wanna be meI don't understand whyWould you wanna bring me downI'm only having funI'm gonna live my lifeLike I wanna do [CHORUS:]I'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off meWhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it isI just need to free my mind (my mind)Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)I'm tired of rumors (rumors)Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)What they (follow) meWhy can't they (they they they-they-they) let me liveTake this for just what it is[CHORUS:]I'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off meWhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it isI'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off mewhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it is " superficial???i live in a superficial world.everything is about looks. i actually had a friend who made friends cause they are pretty...not naming any names. or pointing any fingers. it is just an example...life...sometimes i wonder about life. thinking abt the meaning of life...christians say that i am here cause He has a purpose for me...to redeem the others...i am neither here nor there. i grew up in a buddhist family.from young i wore amulets.but i went to all christian schools. in kindergarden i remember during nap thime, my teacher would check daily if i was still wearing it...it is not my fault...she made it seem like my fault... i i feel torn in between...anyway, abt the superficial society, i feel as if i NEED to fit in, to be in THE society,,,i have no idea why...i guess i AM superficial...the dog eat dog world...spreading rumours abt ppl...plain mean...i was like tht once...sigh....i guess i have out grown tht stage. i mean i still like to gossip and all...but i do not start rumours abt ppl anymore...i think i have changed for the better...

sigh...am having spots on my feet and my toes are very itchy...itchitchitch....scratchscratchscratch...sigh...younger sis is very irritating...picked up the line when i was on the phone and continues listneing...now she is telling my mum about what i yaked about with esther...haha...speaking of whom, she is a real victim...lol...shall not embarrass her...g2g....feet too itchy and have to do chem notes...stupid electrolysis....can not really grasp the concept of it...many things happened on sat...sigh...maybe i am reading too much into what tht person said...sigh..ok...:)g2g..and esther,,,i am really disappointed with you...was supposed to be online since 6.30...and you are still not online...haha....oh well...but gotta go now....and i think you are getting online..so...BYE!!!:P

just came back from camp teen 2004 yesterday at about 2 pm...my legs are itching like HELL!!!oh boy...but the camp was pretty fun...met loads of ppl and had loadsa fun fun fun...jeremy my instructor is pretty funny...weird...and interested in bullying and teasing everyone...hahahaha....well....g2g...

well...i just found out that gracieeeee....is leaving us at the pp...........well...it was really unexpected....oh well....i am so confused...i saw an ad on a job...working at a clinic...but i have this job at the pp...hmm...cannot be so irresponsible...oh well...am heading off for camp teen 2004...well...hope i do not have to rough it out...that much...sigh...oh...i also won the mtv make a diff contest...heehee....must pack for the camp already....cannot find all my undies...oh well....in the laundry in the laundry...nite nite...

XXXOOO

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My Prerogative

[Spoken:]
People can take everything away from you
But they can never take away your truth
But the question is..
Can you handle mine?
They say I'm crazy
I really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
Getting boys is how I live
Some ask me questions
Why am I so real?
But they don't undersand me
I really don't know the deal about my sister
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago
Before I won this fight

[Chorus:]
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
that's my prerogative
(it's my prerogative)
It's the way that I wanna live
(it's my prerogative)
You can't tell me what to do
Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships really gets me dow
nI see nothing wrong in spreading myself around
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
That's my prerogative
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisionsT
hat's my prerogativethat's my prerogative
It's the way that I wanna live
(it's my prerogative)
You can't tell me what to do
why can't I live my lifewithout all of the things
That people say
oh oh
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
(they say I'm crazy)
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
(they say I'm use to)
I don't need permission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative

(it's my prerogative)

ugh!!!Ok...So...gp, am I the 'diplomat'? You do not know how I feel told me that you told her that we all hate her. Sometimes you get me all confused!!!UGH!!!!Ok...Calm down...It is my mum's b day today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!! Ok...I am getting a bit confused with gp.what she said is different form what c and j verified. ?!?!?!?dunno

hahaha.i forgot my userid...so blur and forgetful...well...i went threading yesterday and it was a very interesting experience. i felt a tingling sensation on my eyebrows...heehee...well i celebrated my bday 2 days ago and i had a blast! jas,charis,gp,anddawn went to orchard. wee had lunch a nydc and i had three amigo...hahaha...three of the five amigos ate one three amigo each...lol.today is the last day of school..very hectic.and tyson and bambi are like fighting and fighting...both are suffering and limping...sigh dunno how to stop those two dogs from fighting......tyson is acting weird. he does not wanna walk and all...i cleaned his wound and he was whining and whining...sigh.g2g chech on him now...tata.