My top career area is Counseling and Guidance

Careers in this field often demand that you have a strong desire to improve the lives of others. Most likely, you have strong interpersonal skills, and enjoy working with people. It may also be important to you to work in a profession where you can be certain you're making a difference.

haha.i took the tickle test.haha.am good for counseling and guidance.HAHAHAHAHAHA.

okk..i just spent like two hours reading my GP package.hahaha.

sigh.seems like i am slacking a lot now.and i cant help it!!! ahhh.ooooo...i did my 2.4 run today...man..it was like SWELTERING HOT!!! hmmm.sigh.things are getting kinda weird.as in everytime i see him.i am reminded of all that stuff he promised her....sigh..sucks lah.nvm.
shall not think about it anymore.and just lift my burdens to Him as his yoak is mild.

On His Blindness
John Milton

WHEN I consider how my light is spent
E're half my days, in this dark world and wide,
And that one Talent which is death to hide,
Lodg'd with me useless, though my Soul more bent
To serve therewith my Maker, and present
My true account, least he returning chide,
Doth God exact day-labour, light deny'd,
I fondly ask; But patience to prevent
That murmur, soon replies, God doth not need
Either man's work or his own gifts, who best
Bear his milde yoak, they serve him best, his State
Is Kingly. Thousands at his bidding speed
And post o're Land and Ocean without rest:
They also serve who only stand and waite.

AHHHH
RED.
I AM SEEING RED!!!

:(

little specks of red dots.

. . .. . .. .
. . . . .
. .. . .

it is called rashes.haha.
dunno why.shit.why am i still feeling like this?

haha.i got this from roy's blog...heehee.

the angel test.

You're an angel if you scored below 60.

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
TOTAL: 4

11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die
TOTAL: 9

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) received a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar
TOTAL: 2

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent CD
TOTAL: 3

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room
TOTAL: 3

51) snuck into someone else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush
TOTAL: 5

61) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age
TOTAL: 4

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harassed
80) been verbally harassed
TOTAL: 4

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test
TOTAL: 8

91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
TOTAL: 8

haha.i am an ANGEL.only scored 50..haha..
the past week had been kinda hectic.and emotionally draining. there were times when i feel like just bursting out in tears and to just lose control.but.i cant. :( bleah.sucks lah.just spacing out and just thinking about the content...bleah.nvm..am not going to go to that blog anymore...

haha.okk...cookies is heartbroken... :( awww...nvm.hope that my mum will allow me to go to that party so that can go comfort mr cookies.haha.

school sucks basically...haha.have like two econs test next week and a gp test...haha.but compared to others..i am like super slack already.they have like six tests.haha...hmm..wanna go to ensem concert!!! :D LOVE going for concerts..heehee.and just basically go for plays, dances, musicals, concerts.hahahaha.wanna go to a ROCK concert!!!haha.nvm.school takes up too much time.bleah.haha.and my mum is like HOOKED on da chang jin now.she has succeeded in watching all the discs in TWO daYSS!!! OMG! i cant believe it lah.haha.and she still goes to work.haha. oh yeah.took the personality test this week on weds.and i am still a SCI..haha.but everyone says that the DISC test is CRAP.haha.hmmm.cant really concentrate on my work...haha.too bad.shall mug later..if i dont feel sleepy.haha.
hmm.am chatting with piggy and cookies now.and he seems rEALLY REALLY REALLY sad.mad.depressed. :(AHHHh...sighh.so frustrating...

MISS ESTHER, PIGGY, XWX,RIA. <3>
love you guys.
thanks esther and piggy for hearing me rant on and on and on about ME.haha.very boring subject.love you guys!
cheer up cookies.this is not the end!!! :D and thanks for being there for me when i am feeling down...

shit...
nope.
i will not do it.
i will not do it.
i will not do it.
i will not do it.
pls do not poke.

:(

control.

Self-disciplined begins with the mastery of your thoughts. If you don't control what you think, you can't control what you do.
Napolean Hill

i know i can do it.i have stopped.and this is my second day.YEA!!! lalala.but i am still rather curious ..bleah.stop it.you can control what you think.YOU ARE NOT CURIOUS.haha.brainwashing technique.

went to queensway shopping centre with esther today!!! met her at 11 am.haha.was late for 15 mins.my fault.haha.man..it was super warm in the morning.was sweating like a PIG.haha.then.most of the shops were not open.yet.haha.sooo..since esther did not eat breakfast.(tsktsk)sooo..we went to eat.haha.and then we bought her stuff.and walked around a bit.and just talked.

then...at about 12.30 we headed out.and realised that it was RAINING!!! VERY HEAVILY!!! haha.sooo..we RAN to the taxi stand.with esther running in front of me.and splashing all the water at me.haha.

took a cab to orchard.and since esther wants to get her TAKOPACHI for her cow, we dropped off at taka.so swweeetttt..heehee.miss her loads.nice to have a one on one time with her. :D heehee.and we dropped at taka.and i walked in the rain to cine.haha.it was not fun.haha.cause i was wearing jeans.sooo...when i got into the building.my feet were FREEZING.haha.went to the toilet to blowdry my hair.hahahaha.worked.a bit.heehee.

then.headed down to the cafe cartel to meet ex-classmates of 1AD2 :D heehee
so happy!!!
saw noah and marcus!!! :D heehee.have not seen them in a LOOOOONG time.haha.but a pity..i had to leave early.

miss ya piggy.
cheer up qiuyan!!!
missing you esther
XWX!!! AHHHhhh.

i must control.
i must have control.
pls. help me esther.haha. shopping

hmm.i went shopping today.haha.at zara.man...and everything was like RED.but i was bent on getting something.sooo.i bought like two RED tops(as in bright RED) and a blue one.haha.siiiggghhhh.ok.i am dumb.dumbbbbbb.

i am trying.trying.trying.trying.

lalalalala. IT IS A LOOOONG WEEKEND!!! XD super HAPPY!!! heehee.met up with esther at orchard today. man...she is spending money like water. haha. and the cow was instigating her to spend more money.tsk tsk.went for training in the morning.haha.had fun in the gym.and watching everyone flopping like dead fishes on the carpet.hahahahaha.so weird...but i gotta remember that i am one of them.hahaha.a DEAD fish.no lah.more of superman/superwoman.heehee.and when training ended, ian hid samson's phone under his towel.and samson was like looking alllll over for it.haha.and he actually asked ian to call him.hahahahaha.and alll that while, it was in ian's hand.heehee. well.zhixin, saratri and sarah did not go for today's training.so sad. :( after training, we went to play a little basketball.reminded me of ALLLL the FUUUUN time esther,xwx,adele,jo, and i had.bleah.oh yeah.reminded me of mr ng and shilin...hmmm.wonder if she still remembers me.haha.wonder how she is now.and her sis.haha.okkk.sighh.MGGGGGGGGG...

the past week had been really really really really really hectic.haha.like i was sleeping at around two to three plus everyday.haha.in need of zzzzzzz.just came back from shopping with my mum.haha.and surprisingly...she was kept asking me if i wanted this or that or this or that or this or that etc.haha.so weird.well.today..i was not the big spender.actually.these days..i am not much of a spender.shopping wise.haha.today...it was MY LIL SIS!!! woahhh..haha.okkk. am just in a state of shock.haha.well.she is my lil sis after all.haha.

MISS ESTHER PIGGY XWX. <3<3<3>

bleah.i should stop it with the obsessing of something.cause.the feeling sucks.STOP IT TONGS.

bleah.training ended REALLY late today. haha.ok.not LATE LATE.but late.haha.if you get what i mean. and i have to travel ALLL the way back. haha.

I MISS YOU PIGGY.
I MISS MG.
I MISS MS TAN.
I MISS MR YEO.
I MISS 4B1 2005.
I MISS PURPLE COW.
I MISS SEEING YOU GUYS!!!
bleah. this sucks.
talked to piggy yesterday.(well am talking to her now too) but yesterday...she was painting vivid pictures of our "lives" together. in the same JC. the same class. the same cca. pictures of us tying ropes together for odac. and looking at hot guys together. biatching about stuff. and like basically TOGETHER. bleah. MISS ESTHER LOADS TOO!!! hahaha.chatted with her just now when she was in her lecture. heehee.FINALLY!!! SHE IS IN SCHOOOOOL!!! hahahaha.

<3

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

this sucks. really really really really really sucks. big time.sigh.sigh.sigh.

wish that i did not poke.

and now. i feel much worse.

MISS YOU.
thinking about you.
thanks for being there for me.
always.
to wang and pig. <3

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YOU ARE BRAINWASHED.
THE LAST POST DID NOT EXIST.

anyway...I AM NOT TELLING!!!
ahhh. too bad.

miss you.

but you know.

bleaahhh.this sucks.

D.E.pressi.O.N

it has been a VERY depressing week.and it is only tuesday today. sighh.nvm.talking to angie, piggy, and last but sooo not least, my dear dear ELISE has brighten up my DAY!!! ahhh..gave her an update from sinagpore...haha.missing her loads. and miss angie too!!! I WANNA CRASH MG LESSONS!!! esp. ms tan's lit lessons and mrs chan's art... haha...missing mr yeo too... AND FOUR BE ONE 2005 ROCKS MY FREAKING STRIPED ANKLE SOCKS!!! ahhhh...lol.am like chatting with elise..about CRAP!!! haha.we are such bitches.heehee.both self-proclaimed.and materialistic people.hahahaha. oh yeah...have to go reread the very very very interesting email i got from esther...hahahaha.some parts are quite accurate;) ahhh.oh yeah.esther.so jealous.sigh.nvm.will date her some other day. :D

hmmm.econs test today...surprisingly and weirdly similar to geog.oh no.facing the monday bluuuueeesss. missing esther loads.and xwx. :( and piggy. and basically MG...miss ms tan.hmmm.ooo.am so excited about the upcoming uk project thingy..but i have like noooo idea..should be the normal things..like pics.etc..:D but seems a bit the normal.haha.yeah.

YEA.am so happy that esther has got a new and active blog!!! am able to stalk her somemore..haha.no lah.she is MYYYY girlfriend.soo...stalkable;) sigh...art is like so sucky.cause my painting sucks.so sad... URGH! that like sucks BIG time.aww man.sigh.looks so bad that i just wanna THROW IT AWAY!!! ahhhhh. shit.

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.another factor...

d.r.o.w.n.i.n.g

my shoes are soaked.

haha. I CHANGED MY MSN PASSWORD!!! ;) see how are you going to think of the password...haha.:D hmmm. it is a VERY wet day today.so sad.had to walk in the rain with my art piece.and the black mounting board was running. not good. sigh.so sad.am supposed to have an early day tomorrow.but because of lit...i have to stay back till like 3.10... so sad. ahhh
and i hope my mum would allow me out tmr with the old AD2 class..!!! i REALLY HOPE SOOO!!! i so want to hang out with them again... i REALLY miss them loads!!! ahhh. well...pray hard!!! :D haha.

THE

FUGUE

is pretty confusing.haha.ok.shall go work on it now.hmm.plus stupid econs essay. twenty five marks.for a demand and supply essay.what am i supposed to write about!??!!?! haha. so toot.

BEEP.

b.i.m.b.o. day.

hahahaha.ok.hmmm.EMOTIONAL BASKET CASE.haha.ok.random.well.am like doing my art essay.hahahaha.have to write about one of the well-known paintings done by either one of these three artists...van gogh, paul cezanne or paul gauguin.hahaha.ok.hmmm.have having a little problems choosing which one.since i am like CLUELESS about everything.haha.ok.well.hmm.today was a rather slack day.but have like absolutely noooo break.sooo.i had to sneak eat waffles.haha.hmmm.rah rah commented that i am always having waffles in my bag.haha.cause it was like that yesterday too.well.i get hungry easily.haha.and my bag is like smelling of waffles.not good.not good at all.haha.ookkk.hmm.i got sabo-ed to do the fashion show for the international friendship day...ahhhhhhhhh!!! haha.at least i have roy to accompany me.hahaha.but it is so toot lah.SAMMIEEE.tsk tsk.sabo-ed me.actually i LOVE fashion shows!!! haha. as long as i am the one watching. -.-
ahhh.so sad.found out today that rah rah is leaving for the US...:( like in the middle of the year.boohoo.it is sad lah.only four more months.:( nvm.i make friends to keep!!!:D haha. oh man.
hahaha.i was feeling a bit the weird walking out of school today.cause i was like so slack.haha.today is like the cca day...and shooting has not started yet.haha.well.sigh.hope when it starts..it would not get too hectic.haha.i heard that there is gonna be training on sat too.physical training.hahahaha.ok.
and a tribute to the GUYS OF ex-1AD2 / happy birthday you guys!!! to CLEMENT and SHENGZHONG!!! happy sweet seventeen.haha.ok.that sounded weird.
ahhhh.so happy that i talked to charis yesterday:D it has been like such a long time since i talked to her:D and she is GETTING A HANDPHONE!!! yeaaaa!!! haha.that is going to be sooo much better... haha.YEAH! cant wait for tempest!! haha.i am desperate to stay out late!!! it has been such a long time since i stayed out late with my friends!!! haha.missing you wangity!!! MUACKS<3>

Into your head, into your mind
out of your soul, race through your veins
You can't escape, you can't escape.

Into your life, into your dreams,
Out of the dark, sunlight again.
You can't explain, you can't explain.

Can You feel it, can you feel it,
Rushin' through your hair,
Rushin' through your head,
Can you feel it, can you feel it,

Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

Pulling you in, spinning you 'round,
Lifting your feet right off the ground,
You can't believe it's happening now.

Can You feel it, can you feel it,
Rushin' through your hair,
Rushin' through your head,
Can you feel it, can you feel it,

Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

It takes you to another place,
imagine everything you can.
All the colors start to blend,
Your system overloads again.

Can You feel it?

Don't let nobody tell you, your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

Don't let nobody tell you,
Don't let nobody tell you,
Don't let nobody tell you your life is over,
Be every color that you are,
Give into the rush now,
You don't have to know how,
Know it all before you try.

hmmm.weird mood.and.and.and.dots.dots.dots.nothing.

well..hmm.went abck to mg yesterday..hahahah.very the weird.cause...like almost all the teachers went home already.hahaha.anddddd.that ms tan ahhh.went on a two month attachment with a british company ahhh.soo super cooool.;)hmmm.she is like able to conduct lit tours..hahaha.she already went to new zealand..to the LOTRs filming spots;)hahahaha.miss her loads!!! ahhhhh.haha.took a cab down with piggy.and we met with a RUNNING mrs channny.haha.purple princess.(or is it cow)haha.nope that is what she calls us;)cows.tsk tsk.nvm.it is called a pet name;)hahah.well.she was dragging poooor saraphina.haha.yelling at us to hold that cab for her.haha.well.lucky we did not buy the intended cake.haha.if not only mrs raj and mr yeo would be eating it.hahahaha.so sad lah.well.at least we got to talk to both of them.and able to eat the malay stall's chicken briyani.haha.without chicken.well.at least for me.haha.miss saying that.hahahaha.good to be back at mg:D heehee.well.am like trying to crack my mind open now.thinking about my stuuuupid scarcity mind map.there are just tooooo many things.it is like EVERYTHING.tsk tsk.cant really fit it in the A4 sized paper.hahaha.well.too bad.sighhhh.got ___ for my econs teacher.sigh sigh.hope i will still be able to score in econs:( HOPE.hmmm.have FAITH.well.pardon my pun.

well.am kinda stressed about my art too.mr dunn said that i gotta SPEED UP!.haha.well.hmmm.cause i have to get my photos and all.well.GO TOOT TOOT TONG SI.haha.

and.HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY TO YOU HIU XIAN!!! :D haha.

it is a whirlpool inside my head.:'(

:D ok.yesterday was like soooo fun! the gals went BOWLING.and ARCADE!haha.and we took neoprints!!!haha.heehee.well.we were at like marina south.(very ULU place)haha.and we had to walk like a looooong way from marina bay mrt station.haha.under the hot sun.without my trusty sunnies.heehee.well.still fun anyway.was able to catch up with XWX.;) haha.and Real Kool too.;)heehee.well.Wangiddy too.hmmm.i will make MORE effort to stay close to them.haha.well.ooo.at the bowling alley.i sucked at bowling.haha.it started off with esther, then ria, then me.then last.but not least, XWX.haha.well.i started off with like knocking ZERO pins.while the others could at least hit something.haha.then...FINALLY! i got like a freaking STRIKE.haha.heehee.YEA! well.nothing to boast about.haha.cause after that i still sucked;) well. then we played the second game.heehee.annnnnnd.i was like DA pro.;) haha.esther and i were competing.heehee.super FUN la.haha.awwww man.i just got a call.annnnd.i was reminded of the zouk party.haha.well.really wanted to go.but...i could not find anyone to go with. :( and i thought soph is not going.sigh.haha.but...nvm.i shall be a good girl;) (as if.) and to stay home.using the com.haha.so toot.well.i got STUCK in the lift today.hahahaha.soooo funny lah.adding on..i was like in a rush.i know man.that sucks.rush to meet my freaking early curfew.haha.i was one hour ten minutes late.haha.well.lucky i did not get scolded or anything.haha.well.but the bad thing is that when i got home there was like noooo more food.which like sucks.but nvm.i made my own sandwich.with cheese.haha.HAD A REALLY WEIRD DAY.heehee. ;)

oh yeah.CLASS PARTYYYYY!!! haha.super FUN la.but too bad i could not stay out with them for dinner.:( BUMMER.but.we went to rah rah's beautiful.wonderful.house.haha.REALLY cool house.she got there.and we watched like silence of the lambs.haha.freaky.but since it wasn't in the night.sooo i wasn't freaked out.haha.and we watched the famous...BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN.haha.well.gay scenes.really weird.haha.well.no wonder it is R21.haha.hmmm.jake vs heath.hahahahaha.hmmm.loadsa hanky panky.;) hahaha.rah rah's dog is like soooo cute.the pug and the husky.heehee.well.the pug is cute.the husky is beautiful.haha.HAD A FUN TIME!!! hahaha.
oh yeah.before i went to meet the ppl at far east...met sad case.hahaha.right.yeah.took neoprints!!!hahaha.well.sad case cant smile.hahahaha.so toot.heehee;)
ps.I LOVE ATTENTION.JUST NOT FROM YOU.hahahahaha.right.my new top. ;)

heehee.ok.i got pissed today.not in the drunk manner.as in the angry manner.well.ok.it sounds really petty.hmm.nvm.am not angry anymore.:) went out with pig today.and then gab came along.ooohh.i bought a new top.ok.no.TWO new tops.haha.both are like black.haha.coolicious.well.we stoned at coffeebean for a WHOLE hour.i am like SHOCKED that i can actually stone.haha.well.HE made me angry one.not my fault.haha.well.it is ok.i shall live with it.hmm.not typing any secrets online.haha.not that dumb.=p well.CANT WAIT FOR TMR!!!! CLASS PARTYYYYYY at rah rah's.heehee

Since You've Been Gone

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

:D

siiggghhhh.well.very confused what to dooooo!!!there is like the options of taking four h2 subjects.but i dun wanna be like DEAD.and have NOOOO social life!!!well..have already handed in the appeal form and all.but just have not registered for my subjects yet.well.that is like SUPER freaky man.what if i make the wrong choice?sigh.adding on.not much mg girls came to ac.so sad.was actually looking forward to see my good friends.:( well.it is ok.Ria thanks God anyway for his will:D MISS RIA!<3>

YEA!today was like half day..:D.haha.sooo..ended at like 11 am.heehee.sorry that i did not go with my class.or rather.a small group of ppl from my class to seoul garden.haha.sorry.was not really in the mood for a buffet!!!soooo...i headed home to do my work..haha.am such a good girl.haha..sigh.the a levels results are out today..annnddd..my sis seems REALLY sad about it.sooo.i dunno how she did.haha.nvm.hope she will cheer up.:D haha.had FUN today!!!haha.but.school starts AGAIN tmr.sooo.am back down on earth once again.haha.well.back to GP.haha.found out tht i the 12 articles i did are like wrong.sooo.have to like REDO.haha.sigh.it is like SUPER toot lah.haha.blame me.never READ properly.haha.:) (: GP.

hahaha.went to the beach today!east coast.went cycling for two hours.haha.oooo.she said tht she saw james there today.haha.did not see him.haha.very long since i saw him actually.haha.oookkk.hmmm.it was REALLY fun today!thought it was gonna rain.but.instead it was a VERY good weather to be at the beach.:)

haha.piggy likes someone!!:D haha.right.hmm.went to buy my uniform today from lidos.and 14 was like outa stock.sooo i got size 14 half.and the skirt is like SUPER long.haha.but shall go alter it.and after lidos.mummy, tw,tl and me walked alllll the way to john little.haha.and bought stuff.then we walllkkkked allllll the way back.cause the car was parked at lidos.haha.yeah..and we stopped by paragon to buy some other stuff.and walked.and walked.and walked.and we went home.then i painted my toe nails RED!!haha.the same colour as the pedicure i had in the hols.heehee.love it!sighhhh.nvm.

sigh.super confused.super er...confused.and er..sigh.i DUNNo.oooo.

sigh.played the ever-so-bright lamp post AGAIN...haha.but it is kinda fun hanging with esther and puffy.haha.so sweet to see them fight over who pays for each other...haha.so cute.and sweet.:) heehee.well.went to THE ulu macs.actually.only the outside.and then headed for orchard.then we hang out.took our weekly dosage of neoprint taking.i headed home to take a bath for the CNY dinner..at conrad centennial.or whatever..and then my mum came home..yelling if i have changed.and i said no.then she started yelling about how the last time we were late.blah blah blah.and tht we MUST be earlier this time.blah blah blah.then she took a super long time changing..haha.nvm..it was fun though..getting yelled at.then telling her tht she wanted to be there early...haha.sigh.my mum is so weird.in a cute way.haha.oh man.o levels results..diiee..

lalalala..it is a weds today..went to hv.ate at crystal jade.and went home.super hot day.and still duper hyper about yesterday..:)

haha..am super happy.cause i just bought my GLAM top from forever21 for $48..:)lalalalala..went shopping today.and hung out with puffy and wang..:) super fun being the SHINING lamp post..no la.actually kinda awkward..lol...

lalala..am doing my art critical essay..have to write about Edouard Manet's Luncheon on the Grass.quite tough.since i don't really know how to do it.sigh.will miss elise when she heads back to australia..MISS YOU ELISE!!after the cny celebrations. i went to meet my dearly missed friend at the concourse since we have not met since tht morning..and then we head to the gate to meet a EVEN longer lost friend..my dear piggy!!<3<3then>

sigh.super depressed.mood swings.met up with charis,jas,pig.sat at holland starbucks.and i REALLY miss them.which sucks.and i miss talking to pig and charis and jas as a group.feelings of nostalgia. and the new toy i bought for tyson from the pet shop BROKE after five minutes of him playing it.:(this is getting sadder...adding on, i just found out tht yan cant make it tmr.sigh.and now i am feeling absolutely down.and super sad.and she is haunting me to the end.she is affecting my life in ac already.which really sucks big time.and i really love ac.but i cant seem to muster that strength to face another day in school tmr.i just cant.i just feel so down.and i think about all the times we did spend together. and how i cant really know what she wants and thinks about.i feel so sad just thinking about it.but i really wanna resolve this.and i dunno how.and i really miss wang, dele, xwx loads.and ria too.i know i will be meeting wang, xwx, and dele on sat.but i really cant stand it.i mean.i love my og and all.but i have only met them at the beginning of jan.so tht is abt two weeks.and i dunno how to stop myself from feeling like this.and tyson is really naughty.and i snapped at my brother today.:(and i totally biatched at my older sis for taking my clothes.everyday.sigh.am rambling.:(and i have to think about studies.and i am fearful of whether i can cope well.and catch up.blah blah blah.i am open to change.but i think i am kinda trying to adapt to change number 2.new class.sigh.but just wanna say thanks to wendy for the comfort.and am listening to this hilary duff song.it seems kinda true.that something will be going on everywhere.anywhere.but i gotta keep going.at least try.no matter what i do.someone will be there to bring me down.but i just gotta keep going.it is all around me.but i have the choice whether i wanna let it make an impact on me.
There's people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don't know anything
About me
Give me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
I need to getaway tonight
I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try and make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok
The cities restless
It's all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight

orientation week has flown by...and i have made loadsa new friends..but i am NOT forgetting the old oness..(are u reading this, esther???)and i LOVE my og!!! kisses to Baudelaire!!lalalala..i just met my class today.and i am pretty afraid of them..sigh.and SHE is in my class.and Deb said tht if SHE was in HER class, she would transfer out.OMG!die die die.everyone is like patting on my back.telling me it is ok.sigh.the first look on their faces when i told them who was in my class is like.DOT DOT DOT.sigh.so sad.:(well.nvm.MUST THINK POSITIVE!ok.good thing coming up.going out with piggy, jas, charis tmr to holland.shall sit at starbucks and talk.for a very long time.since the stupid place practically threw van, esther and me OUT when we wanted to study on a sat after a sleepover at my house.to study for the olevels.so evil.right.:Pcant wait for og outing!!!lalalalala.

lol.it has been like ages since i even add anything in here...lol...am at home.. trying to do my art..and still not forgetting tht i am having chinese prelims tmr!!!and i am in this 'play' mood...all because i finally watched my second episode of one tree hill..i know. i am really outdated.lol

heehee.went major shopping today. bought stuff from zara, fox fashion and this quaint shop called 'the station'.my lil bro went overseas today for a school trip.to thailand.sigh.and he left without checking tht his comics are all returned.so it think my mum has to pay some fines.but my lil bro insisted tht he returned everything.but tht day i saw tht 2 comics are still in his possession.oh well.

	You've got a deep need to analyze and influence the people around you. You insist on excellence in all you do, and that's why you're always pushing people to use their talents, or competing with them to demonstrate how well you've developed your own. Your tough questions can sometimes scare people, but they really have no reason to be afraid. As long as they stay on your good side, you'll defend them to the end. But, when someone crosses you, they should be warned that they've chosen the fiercest enemy there is! Your instinctive ability to read people is an excellent diagnostic tool. Maybe that's why there are so many Scorpio doctors and surgeons. Criminal justice is another field that is well-suited to your sign. Your tremendous tenacity forces you to keep working on puzzles until you have them solved. No one would get away with breaking the law if you were on the case! You're strong and independent, but you cherish your relationships, too. You need people who admire your intelligence and focus, and who live up to your high standards of success.

* chariot - Gavin degraw

Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
and seedless watermelon.
Ohhhh, nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rise,
Look what's over me

Oh Chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh Chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me give me your strength

Remember seeking moons rebirth
Rains made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energy
There is a living promised land
Even over fields of sand
Seasons filled my mind and covered me
Bring it back
More than a memory

You'll be my vacation away from this place
You know what I want
Holding that cup
It's pouring over the sides
You make me want to spread my arms and fly

Wellz,it is said that a friend loves at all times,and always protects,always trusts,always hopes,always perseveres...
Jiayou Esther!At least do your homework,it'll do you good...^_^

~Dawn

Pursue
By Ooi Tong Si

I am following the road’s insinuations
I am following the world of illusions
The sightings I see are filled with ominous ambition
Ever so dark and full of commotions
Now I see it.
Unprecedented in its scale and emotion.

just sent tyson dearie to the vet in the morning.he was quite reluctant to get into the car.and he was so scared when he saw me leave him there and the other doggies were all barking at him.hmmm.i miss him.oh.btw, do any of you wanna buy the hwa chong production tickets?if u wanna, give me a call/sms.at 9180 5927.it is $8 for the 20 th may and $9 for the 21st may. it is called 'cash on delivery'. the play is about the British social system and about this guy trying to get the free subsidy from the government by feigning ill. and he gets what he wants.the only problem is that the money kepts coming in.too much money.other then tht, his wife also thinks he has a gay relationship with his uncle.well.this play is written by a british...so if u want more info abt this, sms or call me...

Rottweilers accompanied the Roman Legions, herding their cattle and guarding their camps across the Alps. On the banks of the Neckar River in what is now southern Germany, was the origin of the town of Rottweil (named for the red tile roofs of the villas built by the Romans). The cattle trade flourished in Rottweil through the mid-1800s, as did the Rottweiler Metzgerhund (butcher dog), who drove the cattle to market and returned with the filled purses of their masters around their necks. As rail transportation became the primary means of bringing cattle to market, the dogs were used less frequently. By 1905, there was only one Rottweiler left in the town of Rottweil. The Rottweiler gained popularity as a police dog in the early 1900's. Several Clubs were formed, and in 1921 united as the Allgemeiner Deutscher Rottweiler Klub (ADRK). The first Rottweiler was admitted to the AKC Stud Book in 1931. The Rottweiler was a fairly uncommon dog in the United States through the 1970's, but the early 1980's began a meteoric rise in popularity. The Rottweiler is now the second most popular AKC breed since 1992.

One two three go! My baby don't mess around Because she loves me so And this I know fo shooo.. Uh, But does she really wanna But can't stand to see me Walk ou the dooo.. Don't try to fight the feelin' Because the thought alone is killing me right nooww.. Uh, thank god for mom and dad For sticking through together 'Cause we don't know hooowww... UH! [Chorus] Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. You think you've got it Ohh, you think you've go it But got it just don't get it Till' there's nothing at AaaaaaaaAAAAAAAaaaaaaAAAAAAaaaaaallllll.. We've been together Ohh, we've been together But seperate's always better when there's feelings InvooooooOOOOOOOoooooooOOOOOOooooooOOOOOlved If what they say is ("Nothing is forever") Then what makes, Then what makes, Then what makes Then what makes, Then what makes LOOVVEEE? (Love exception) So why you, why you Why you, why you, why you are we so in denial When we are not happy heeeerrreeee... Y'all don't want me here you just wanna dance Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (Don't want to meet your daddy, OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Just want you in my Caddy OHH OH) Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH, don't want to meet yo' mama OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Just wan't to make you cumma OHH OH) Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (I'm, OHH OH I'm, OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (I'm just being honest OHH OH, I'm just being honest) Hey, alright now Alright now fealous, (YEAH!) Now what's cooler than bein' cool? (ICE COLD!) I can't hear ya' I say what's cooler than bein' cool? (ICE COLD!) whooo... Alright, alright, alright, alright Alright, alright, alright, alright Alright, alright, alright, alright Alright, alright, alright, Ok now ladies, (YEAH!) And we gon' break this back down in just a few seconds Now don't have me break this thang down for nothin' Now I wanna see y'all on y'all baddest behavior Gimme some suga', I am your neighbor ahh here we go! Shake it, shake, shake it, shake it (OHH OH) Shake it, shake it, shake, shake it, shake it, shake it (OHH OH) Shke it, shake it like a Poloroid Picture, shake it, shake it Shh you got to, shake it, shh shake it, shake it, got to shake it (Shake it Suga') shake it like a Poloroid Picture "Shake it" Now while Beyonc้ and Lucy Lui And baby dogs, get on the floor (Get on the floor) You know what to dooo.. Yooooouuu.. know I do Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Uh oh, Hey Ya) Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (Uh, uh, OHH OH) Heeeyyy... Yaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH) Heeyy Yaaaaaaaa.. (OHH OH)

lol.am super alert now.all due to the coffee bun i unwittedly pushed in down my throat.SHAKE IT LIKE A POLOROID .lol.haha.am feeling all weird.had a headache the whole day and felt like sleeping.and still wanna sleep but.there is a slight problem.anywayz.esther is like to TOOT.nah.just joking.:) cause she does not wanna do her homework.heehee.i know.i am sounding like her mother or something.am getting all naggy and stuff.well.this is me.and to answer you dawnie, HOLLER!

*dances about and singing*...

"Let me hear you say, this **** is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S

this **** is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S

Again, this **** is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S

This **** is bananas
B-A-N-A-N-A-S..."


haha,ok...even though this is not a very edifying song(holla back girl)...I like the rhythm.I like that part,its cute!
And i know Tongsi hates this song...

~Dawn

This school reminds me of the movie Mean girls...
at first I thought it was only a particular group of peeps that are THAT extreme-ish similar to the 'plastics' in school...sure there'll be backstabbing time and again,but I never expected a thick multitude of lies and stabbed backs to be uncovered on your regular group of regular people.
Haiz,but can't be helped if people find it more satisfying to speak behind other people's backs rather than facing up to it.And twisting and turning of stories...oh well.Izit juz this school?Or juz some particular people?Or are all girls like that?I find guys alot more direct and less twofaced.But it can't be,coz I'd never stopp that low...and neither will some people.

"Watch your back",says the blub of Mean Girls...
Oh,but don't worry about me...I'm perfectly harmless...^_^
I would never stab another human being...
Hey,I don't even have the heart to squash an insect!
Lol...
Me and my compassion for animals..

~Dawn

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

Indifference is the strongest force in the universe.
It makes everything it touches meaningless.
Love and hate don't stand a chance against it.

The Snow Queen


hahaha.i blocked her. and she wants to find her foe to be outstretched under a tree.hahaha.i have decided to let it go.i will not allow this grudge to ruin me, to bleed me dry. i have decided to pull out that knife and go for an operation.lol.well.but i will not talk to her unless required to do so.by doing this, it does not mean tht my wrath did not end.it just means that i do not consider him my friend.*Alty is so weird and she kept calling me mean.well.what do u expect.i wrath did end.and i will not allow it to destroy me.i know he still wants revenge to statisfy oneself but that is just what is gonna ruin him.

haha.i know.i can be a bit blur.but apparently, i unwittedly hit the 'post' button when i was typing the post halfway.well lucky for me cause the extra stuff was not supposed to be posted on.sigh.heehee.well.am having free period now cause mr yeo is not in school today because he is off serving the country.and recess is next.however i want to go home to the extend tht i do not even want to have that period.

hahahahaha.everything i typed is GONE! nvm. but i cannot remember what i typed. the time i spent the past hour is down the drain.nvm.xcoz the light i s gone.figuritively.nvm.just that all my feelings has been flushed down.all the rantings and my deepesat most thoughts are gone!NVM.

http://www.hwachong.edu.sg/newsEvents/jcdsa/index.htm
hmm.am feeling a bit stressed out.i did not know tht it is gonna be so soon.have to send out the applications soon!!!and get my resume!!!and i just realise tht under the achievements area.it is gonna be quite blank.ohoh.and *hazel is extremely weird and she seems like she is not feeling any anger!!!such a weird girl. and *esther is so angry.filled with negative emotions and being all so angry.and plotting and plotting and plotting.and it scares me sometimes.well.am doing some quizzes, hoping to destress.

what color rose does you soul have?

Your Results:The red roseyous is the red rose you have love for many and think there might be a god but your not yet sure you cant stand to know that people you love are hurtting because it hurts you also so you try to make them happy in any way you can

Hey ya Tongsi!
haha,yeah....I like your blog too..
I'm typing this in the computer lab,with Charis...
While you guys are having Amaths tests..
muahahahaha....
I never regreted dropping Amaths...^_^

yippee!!!have a new cool funky hip and RAWKIN' blog skin.:P and i have to now figure out how to work the stuff out.lol.hmm.am still not planning to talk to the girl who sits next to dawnie.well g2g eat my recess.extremely imp period of the day:)

well...from dots to pink and beautiful ans then back to dots...well....hmm...was in an extremely brain dead mood today...was practically laying sprawled on the floor...(due to overusage of brain cells)...and too much laughing went on with me...and i have no reason why...but...(yes...there is always a BUT)...i feel so..melancholy...i mean i wanna go to the IB program...i mean...i seems totally rad..and cool...AND...the elite...yeah...tht is why to enter i have to get like...6 to 8 points...sigh...have to work a lot harder...hmmmmm.and the girl whom i am currently and maybe forever not gonna talk to is extremely DOT DOT DOT.sigh.nvm.ps . i love colourful and hot pink dots...well g2g do my geog thingy...:P

lol...just wrote a poem...must edit first..:P...am in one of those moods...:(

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??" - Results:
i am feeling extremely confused and angry...not hurt...she was not THAT close to me yet...but sigh...i now know the meaning of blood boiling...haha...

"What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)" - Results:

You're the high fashion trendsetter. You're confident, independent, outgoing, and love attention. You might become a star one day. All the girls like to follow in your foot steps because you're so cool, fashionable, and don't care about anything. You make the rules, never follow. But please be sure not to act bitchy. That could be bad. But keep the attitude. That's what makes you, you. hahaha...very funny...lol...btw, this quiz is from quizilla.com...lol

Moonlight
You have moonlight eyes. Moonlight is the color of mystery. Your eyes symbolize your ability to see yourself as others see you. You have finesse for letting other people know what you think. You have a soothing and calming ability that you may or may not know about. You have the awesome ability to draw a person's negative energy out and replace it with a positive energy; the world needs more people like you. Some words to describe you: patient, self-controlled, perseverance, insightful, reflective, understanding, serene, and caring.

lol...did this quiz about "what kind of eyes do you have"...hmmm...very weird...heehee...dawnie dearie did this test too...and she is eden...can check it out at her blogger...:Pand a note to dawnie...please keep you letter size on my blog at tiny or small...i don't mind the colour red..(even though it messes up the colour scheme..)heehee...sigh...am thinking about founders day dinner...am partially excited and partially...er...how do i put it this way...er...bored about it...don't get me wrong...yeah it is exciting and all..but the fun part is preparing FOR it...not at it...it is so fun thinking and choosing what am i wearing, my nails, my toes, my shoes, what accessories etc...yeah...OH... and what hairstyle...i bet it is gonna be so fun just preparing with my galfriends...(yeahyeah:qing.jas,charis, dawnie,ria,estheretc...)...heehee...i am so gonna fail this chem test!!!i shall not put anything up about it just in case some one who read this has not taken the test...;)heehee...well...gonna do my CSI project now...:)

Haha,pardon my blurness....I didn't know we were able to invite others to publish in our blogs.Till Tongsi sent me an email inviting me...=)
I'm in the library now,freezing my fingers off and typing away in on the keyboard.Its Chemistry period now,but I don't take Chem,or Additional Maths...coz I refused to take them.I guess,since its rightfully Tongsi's blog,I shall keep my usual rambling thoughts and feelings to myself and restrict to only school related stuff.
Hm,yesterday our principal called out an emergency meeting for all Sec 4s.Apparently,the Ministry of Education have decided to go back to the former system,and count our Prelimary Exams on our entry to JC or polytechnics.I know Tongsi's intending to go to a JC,and I have confidence in her that she definately will without trouble(You can do it Tongsi!)..coz she's hardworking...and posesses the brains to do so...
But it brings to mind those who are intending to go to a junior college but the prelims may be alittle difficult for them to get in.I guess I should be worrying about myself to,as I don't think I can even get into the course I want for poly with my impending prelim results.But I've learnt to become more concerned for others,instead of being selfcentered and worrying about me,myself and I all the time.They've got to work really hard...I've heard the prelims tend to be more difficult than the O level papers...
Honestly,I WAS nervous...and racked with anxiety when our principal broke the news to us...
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I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.

Psalm 32:8

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However,we must remind our selfs to keep our focus on Him.I was reminded that I seemed to be praying desperately for strength,and wisdom in the current circumstances...

And I will continue on to pray,to pray for wisdom and peace beyond understanding..

-www.individualistically-different.blogspot.com

Dulce Et Decorum Est

Bent double, like old beggars under sacks,
Knock-kneed, coughing like hags, we cursed through sludge,
Till on the haunting flares we turned our backs
And towards our distant rest began to trudge.
Men marched asleep. Many had lost their boots
But limped on, blood-shod. All went lame; all blind;
Drunk with fatigue; deaf even to the hoots
Of disappointed shells that dropped behind.

GAS! Gas! Quick, boys!-- An ecstasy of fumbling,
Fitting the clumsy helmets just in time;
But someone still was yelling out and stumbling
And floundering like a man in fire or lime.--
Dim, through the misty panes and thick green light
As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.

In all my dreams, before my helpless sight,
He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.

If in some smothering dreams you too could pace
Behind the wagon that we flung him in,
And watch the white eyes writhing in his face,
His hanging face, like a devil's sick of sin;
If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood
Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs,
Obscene as cancer, bitter as the cud
Of vile, incurable sores on innocent tongues,--
My friend, you would not tell with such high zest
To children ardent for some desperate glory,
The old Lie: Dulce et decorum est
Pro patria mori.

lalalala..heehee like tiny tiny words...:P sigh am feeling so restless and hot...the air is so humid and i just wanna lie on my bed and just watch tv...sigh...stupid tyson...he kepts biting tong li...he is driving me NUTS!!!but on the other hand, he is a smart dog...i found his choker chain buried in one of his hiding place after like...3 mths...and he is really cheeky..like when i hug him, he bites my hair...sigh,but he is really a sweet dog once he is trained properly...he bit and growled at uncle lee yesterday...so scary...am going to buy a muffler for him as he spoilt the one and only existing one in the house...sigh...he is draining my money...am going broke because of him...sigh...my lil baby...

just read dawnie's bloggg...very sweet...ok...but she does not like to be known as cute/sweet...::...and ria's sitting next to moi now...am a teenie weenie bit disppointed...about my english...and bioloy test...but well...i knew about the bio test...but for english...?sigh...i feel that ria is an extremely religious person...she scolded me yesterday for saying that we all have "a demon" in us...what i meant is that we all have a dark side...then she scolded me...:(...oh welll....not the first time.she has scolded me loadsa times for saying something which i think she thinks in ...sigh...::...she just broke my chain of thoughts..."critiria""bacteria"...what's the diff?still "....ria"...lol...anyway..i think that she thinks that a lot of things which i have said is extremely offensive...but...sigh...this is how i was brought up...i dunno...maybe i am not 'fated' to become a christian of something...i reallly don't know...am feeling exceptionally confused and haggard today...

"Rumors" "Saturday steppin' into the clubAnd it makes me wanna tell the DJ Turn It UpI feel the energy all aroundAnd my body can't stop moving to the soundBut I can tell that you're watching meAnd you're probably gonna write what you didn't seeWell I just need a little space to breatheCan you please respect my privacy[BRIDGE:]Why can't you just let me Do the things I wanna doI just wanna be me I don't understand whyWould you wanna bring me downI'm only having funI'm gonna live my lifeLike I wanna do[CHORUS:]I'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off meWhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it isHere we are back up in the clubPeople taking picturesDon't you think they get enoughI just wanna be all over the floorAnd throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)I've gotta say respectfullyI would like it if you take the cameras off of me'Cause I just want a little room to breatheCan you please respect my privacy[BRIDGE:]Why can't you just let me Do the things I wanna doI just wanna be meI don't understand whyWould you wanna bring me downI'm only having funI'm gonna live my lifeLike I wanna do [CHORUS:]I'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off meWhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it isI just need to free my mind (my mind)Just wanna dance and have a good time (good time)I'm tired of rumors (rumors)Followed (followed, followed, followed, followed, followed)What they (follow) meWhy can't they (they they they-they-they) let me liveTake this for just what it is[CHORUS:]I'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off meWhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it isI'm tired of rumors startingI'm sick of being followedI'm tired of people lyingSaying what they want about meWhy can't they back up off mewhy can't they let me liveI'm gonna do it my wayTake this for just what it is " superficial???i live in a superficial world.everything is about looks. i actually had a friend who made friends cause they are pretty...not naming any names. or pointing any fingers. it is just an example...life...sometimes i wonder about life. thinking abt the meaning of life...christians say that i am here cause He has a purpose for me...to redeem the others...i am neither here nor there. i grew up in a buddhist family.from young i wore amulets.but i went to all christian schools. in kindergarden i remember during nap thime, my teacher would check daily if i was still wearing it...it is not my fault...she made it seem like my fault... i i feel torn in between...anyway, abt the superficial society, i feel as if i NEED to fit in, to be in THE society,,,i have no idea why...i guess i AM superficial...the dog eat dog world...spreading rumours abt ppl...plain mean...i was like tht once...sigh....i guess i have out grown tht stage. i mean i still like to gossip and all...but i do not start rumours abt ppl anymore...i think i have changed for the better...